i am everything i hate
therefore i hate everything i am
leading me to the conclusion that... i hate myself

no matter how hard i try to be positive, or how hard i try not to be what i hate, i still am
and i still suck
and im still a loser

No longer do I feel jealousy towards the skinny model types, now I am focusing all of my envy on those who are able to accept their bodies and be comfortable with themselves ( Read more... )

i feel like i need something new ( Read more... )

im going to see Muse in a couple of months???!!!!?!?!?!

talk about dream concert!

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for coming into the salon today and taking everyone by surprise

and for making every girl (and lorenzo) really nervous and excited because you are so hot.

id say today went well.

last night was a VERY good night.

im moving back home in a little less than a week and im super stoked!
the only thing im going to miss about LA is my job, and kate, but I'll come visit.

i just have to get out of here, for my mental stabilities sake.

did that last sentence make sense?

when i'm in LA i feel like a piece of me is missing.
and its a really weird feeling.
its one of those feelings that makes me want to do nothing but sleep until I can leave again.

I believe its only 25 more days until I get to be out of here for good.
it just seems so far away.

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ohhhhhhh fuck!