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i don't know if i've written anything about teague. teague is my boyfriend. we have been dating about 5 months and have been 'official' boyfriend/girlfriend for almost 3 months. he is such an amazing person, when we first started dating, we would stay up until the wee hours of the morning just talking about anything and everything. we would sometimes stop talking for an hour or so and just play with each others fingers and look at each other. i have never had a connection with anyone like i have with him. i have probably said that before about other guys...but i know this is true. he has made me realize many things about myself, he has taught me to think in different ways, he has taught me the meaning of an hour, or a day, or a month.
and now, all that is fading away.
we see each other everyday. he lives in my building, on the 5th floor. he's the assitant manager at boathouse in the mall were i work at garage, right around a corner from each other. we spend nearly everynight together and i love every second of it. but, although he too enjoys all this time together, and is usually the one to suggest we get together, he says that we see each other too much and that he's not enjoying it anymore. we are going to try to see each other less, and see how that goes. i am very scared right now.
obviously i know i can live without him. right now though, i just really dont want to. so i have to give him his space and although it's really hard, because i can't get into his head and i can't know what or how he's feeling about us, i have to do it because this might be the only thing i can do to help our relationship right now.
and this was a whole lot of boring typing for everyone who has read it.