as if i needed more on my mind

[stellablue3682]

in the past week, i have grown all too familiar with the sight of my own blood. the sounds of doctors' offices. the sensory experiences of more lab work: the awful snap of rubber gloves, the crumple of plastic-wrapped syringes, the squeeze of the tourniquet on my upper arm, the gentle tap on the inside of my elbow as the nurse locates a vein. the

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[hershey_kisses7]

wow emily. i'm glad i got you found out what happened. my grandmother, dad, and 18 year old sister all have diabetes. it's one of the scariest things to have watched my sister lose all that weight. i don't really think there was anything she could've done specifically to keep it from coming because it's generally inherited.

but! if you do have to give yourself daily injections i know like the new hip thing is to have this pump that goes like on your abdomen, you keep it on yourself at all times and it automatically injects insulin inside you.

my sister told me this after a month of being diabetic (she got it when she was 16) was that it's kind of a good thing she HAS to eat healthy and in the long run might be good.

[stellablue3682]

the weight loss has definitely been the scariest thing out of all this. but no one - seriously, no one - in my family has or ever had diabetes. so this is totally whack to me.

thanks for the thoughts, though :)

[beforetoday]

Oh my God. That was absolutely out of left field. I'm so glad you can get back on track to being healthy again. I absolutely cannot imagine you as 114 pounds.

Wow. Yikes. But I echo what Esther said about it being a good thing she HAS to eat healthy. I know when I was diagnosed with migraines I ate a ton less sugar, processed meat, chocolate, etc... And I mean, you were granola-crunchy to begin with, right?

Take care.

(Also, AmeriCorps in Boston awaits you if you so desire!)

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[stellablue3682]

i was def. granola crunchy, but i loved me my sweets. no more of that, though - i can't even eat ketchup, because even ketchup has sugar in it. it's pretty interesting when you start REALLY looking at ingredients labels, all the hidden stuff in food.

as for boston, this whole week has been so crazy that i just now got your email. i'm not sure what i'll be doing about it (right now, i don't think i could handle any more big changes) but thanks so much for passing along all that info. and thanks for the encouraging words

[stellablue3682]

:) nice to know someone else knows the feeling of having a hate-hate relationship with one of their internal organs. thanks

[lesthanjill]

at least you know.

dustin, my ex-boyfriend of 2 years had diabetes and had to give himself insulin every day, he found out he had it when he was 17. i don't know what caused it.
but he leads a regular life and i don't think he really thinks about it much anymore, it's just part of his routine, like taking a shower or getting up for work.

hang in there, i'm thinking of you =]

[stellablue3682]

thanks, les. i miss you -

[startrip]

oh em, i'm so glad that you're going to be OK though. but i'm so sorry you have to go through this. :( i'm thinking of you, and if you need to talk, you know my number. <3