No. I don't want to talk about what's wrong. No. It's better left unsaid. No. Give me this. THIS. Silence. Superficiality. *Stage three* of healing. SHUT UP AND DON'T SAY A WORD ABOUT IT ( Read more... )

When you are consumed with beauty and love, it is okay. Everything is sincerely okay. Even the negativity that surrounds me at times. Even the unhappy thoughts that cross my mind. The anger I occasionally feel. The jealousy that used to encompass me. The acceptance and denial of all things around me. When utterly consumed in beauty and love, it is ( Read more... )

Ultram is for pain ( Read more... )

I am going to create a wailing wall. A place where I can fold up all of my pains and hide them between rocks that are strong enough to hold this hurt. Share the burden that I, apparently, cannot handle. It will be my strength. It can hold my weaknesses. I will become whole again. Fill up these burrows of emptiness in me with love instead of misery ( Read more... )

There are five million minute details about my life that I could discuss right now. SAT. AP Gov. Today. Yesterday. But that is not important. What is important is how I feel.

And I feel enlightened.


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Today. Hmm..Thursday. It was an okay day. Pretty average. I made it through the day without vomiting. I was really tired ( Read more... )

Today, I spent the day on various excursions to restroom facilities to partake in vomiting. Oh yes...doesn't that sound joyful? I despise throwing up...unless it's for bulimic purposes (I'm just kidding). But..alas...I was sick. SICK. BAH! So, during drama, I had to go home to drink jasmine tea with lemon and honey, and rest. I was able to actually ( Read more... )

Woo!! Tuesday night! Edwards vs. Cheney!!! I'm excited! (It's 1 hour and 28 minutes away ( Read more... )

I have these little phases...I'm sure others get them too...but I want to change completely. I'm talking, I want to buy all new clothes, chop off my hair and dye it black, buy new makeup, new perfume, even new fucking shampoo. I want to start taking my latino dance lessons again from Rob Rizzutto. Go to Ruben Orengo's house and take violin. Back to ( Read more... )

Did Kerry kick Bush's ass or what? The man was beautiful! Articulate, informed, quick on his feet...it was great. GO KERRY ( Read more... )