today has been the nicest day i've had in a while, despite its superficiality. i've officially r.s.v.p.'ed to uninvitations. this, is acceptance. this, is me, accepting. no negativity. no hostility, nothing. i'm going to start something new, something better. a revolution. I WILL START A FUCKING REVOLUTION.

and you will watch me.

i've basically taken up my dad's entire cd collection, dating back to who knows when. i found michael jackson's thriller vinyl siting on the far end of the entertainment center, so i went down to the garage to see if the old record player still worked, and i emerged triumphantly, michael jackson, pre-child molester days, echoing off the walls in ( Read more... )

i'd like to be rescued by something i know nothing about.

save me.
save, everything.

despite the painstaking procedure of studying non-stop (oh look, a hyperbole!) for three days in a row, this week has been good to me. i got a lot accomplished, all around. i've gained a new appreciation for things, oh, and hey look, my negativity is gone again. people never cease to amaze me, for the good this time. i'm feeling good about ( Read more... )

i've fashioned an avid dislike toward the concept of finals. maybe it's my laziness, or my unwillingness to surrender my long weekend.. but it feels entirely superficial that i'm experiencing guilt for not studying today, though the guilt isn't motivating enough. tomorrow and monday will compensate, mark my words ( Read more... )

i confuse myself with my moodswings. i feel slightly unstable, more times than others. social interaction has become difficult for me.. is difficult for me. at least, enjoyment of social interaction.. most times. what, is, wrong ( Read more... )

i've been so giddy lately, it's disgusting. i feel like myself, minus my negativity. most of it, at least. it's nice, i like being fucking positive, though i don't like my motive. but oh, my god, this motive.

oh, anna seems to have fallen into the forbidden pit of like, it's almost humiliating to admit. only almost, i haven't been caught in awhile ( Read more... )

it seems that i've lost any and all remnants of "creative flair," if i even had any to begin with. composing seems impossible now, but i've found good company in a cup of hot chocolate, a book, and the flexibility of music. i'm still looking to create, even if in other ways. i'd like a sewing machine. i've been telling just about everyone, you know ( Read more... )

lenient friends-cut, for the sake of my sanity. unfriend me if you're offended.

oh, god, i feel like i'm deteriorating, from the inside out. i'd really like to know what's going on..

coming home early is really fucking refreshing, i miss living closeby. and i really would like more control.

society intrigues me.

thank you to those who keep me sane. really.