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Happy Holidays
It's been quite a time since I have updated. That means more than one thing to me. It means that I HAVE NOT been keeping up with my once a week treatment of home threapy for myself. (that's not to say that I would have been going to a therapist right now anyways... so I should let it go) However I feel bad beause I should still have been able ( Read more... ) -
what to say
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Going Home:
I don’t know how I feel about going home. I feel that I should be happy to be going back to the states. However, I don’t feel as happy as I could. I just think that I am missing people more because everyone else says that they miss people back home so much and I want to be like everyone else and say that I miss home maybe when I really don’t so ( Read more... ) -
Day Time Nightmares
I kind of figured that in order to get any type of therapy today that I would have to do it sooner rather than later. I was going to work on my horrendous paper for British Studies, but then I thought about all the things that I had to do today and I realized that I might not have time later to sit and think about things like this. Not make the ( Read more... ) -
Writing to Calm the Thoughts
The past therapy post was not all that hard to write about. There were a few sections of it where re thinking about all of these things was able to bring back old hurts, but they were quickly put down, mostly because I have been able to get past them and forgive what has happened. There of course are going to be harder posts where I won’t be able ( Read more... ) -
Guy Fawkes and Everything Changes
So tonight was the celebration of Guy Fawkes day in England, a celebration in honor of the guy who tried to blow up the English Parliament and thus rid England of their government in one fell swoop in 1605... Wierd thing to celebrate huh? So there was this huge ass bonfire on thr grounds and by the time that I got back to the Manor house I looked ( Read more... ) -
First Therapy Session
So understandably there are some things that are harder to talk about than others. I know that when I have talked to other people about their pasts that I routinely am jealous that no one has had experiences like I did. However I am also happy that they haven’t---quite like a paradox. And then there are those rare people that when I talk to them ( Read more... ) -
Therapy for Myself
I am thinking that I am going to stop going to therapy for now. I know that I probably shouldn’t, but I am in the frame of mind that I don’t want to go. And if I don’t want to then it’s a bad idea to because I won’t share anything and get any help like that which I need. I feel pathetic writing and admitting that I need help like that. But I ( Read more... ) -
A New Look
Well here is my new look for my journal. I am going to keep working on it because I'm not quite satisfied with the entire look of it yet. This is what happens when you get bored and are putting off sleep and any other productive thing that I could possibly be doing. James where are you to tell me to go to sleep when I need you? Ah well, ( Read more... )
