i miss my grampa ralph :(

i was just telling tiff about how i gave my very first blown glass to him and now my head is just over flowing with memories..

he used to get so excited about everything i would make..he even held on to the glass beads i made him until they day he passed.

i wish i could talk to him right now..with the whole contemplating a ( Read more... )

i feel trapped ( Read more... )

theres something really calming about the rain. ive been so on edge with school work lately.. just sitting on the porch and watching this storm just seems to lower the tension so much. that and mr. bry guy.. he makes me smile even when i dont want to :)

as of yesterday i get to call brian boyfriend :)

he went out to berkey with me the other night to watch the meteor shower.
it was probably one of the coolest things i've ever seen.
we saw atleast 50 shooting stars! it was perfect :)

first off.. he is absolutely amazing :)

second off.. i dont know what the fuck you're doing to yourself...but i sure hope you're okay with it. your word and your actions don't line up.

i care too much about you to see you hurt yourself again

when i woke up this morning/afternoon i turned the tv on and there was a show on E! about celebrity murders..
i saw the part about john lennon and it just pushed me back into my beatles kick

across the universe anyone? lol

yesterday had it's ups and downs.. but i'm so incredibly stoked on how it turned out.

you have no idea.

i've been all smiles all day long :)

after tuesday night im not sure what to think.

i like you..

everything came out of no where but it was really cool.. but things just went back to normal in the morning.

i wish i werent so confused.

im not happy.

maybe its the loneliness getting to me.
maybe its my over-active thinking.

i feel like ive failed myself and its the absolute worst feeling in the world.

something needs to change.

such a bum day ( Read more... )