I feel so awkward. I used to be all up for parties and going out with everyone to have a good time, but I just don't feel like it anymore. I feel like a rehab patient. Hi my name is Stephanie and I've been sober for two months. But its not even like I had a revelation one day and thought oh I'm done with smoking and drinking, I just don't ( Read more... )

so I haven't written this in a while, but I think that I tend to only use this to vent when things aren't absolutely perfect, which they have been for a while now. I tend to keep my emotions inside of me so its nice to be able to get them out by just writing in this stupid thing ( Read more... )

I had a long talk with aram last night. I finally got to hear a lot of things that I've always known, but kinda turned my head to. The hardest part is accepting it. Before, I could just pretend that I didn't know some of these things. I could just put all my trust into one thing and for the times I was unsure use my trust to extinguish any of ( Read more... )

It's monday. THis weekend wasn't very good. We won the states which i guess was a good thing, but besides that nothing else really was worth the time. Saturday morning I went out to breakfast but still didnt really feel too great. Then I had a game afterwards which we won 12-1. After that I came home and just stayed around the house. Went to ( Read more... )

I'm what I would call a bad person...I manage to hurt the only person I love

yeah so its been close to a month since I've updated this. My life is quite crazy. I must say, Cranston is getting more and more boring as the days pass. There's no decent parties anymore and the only things left to do is either eat smoke or watch movies. I learned kinda how to surf yesterday and I'm going again today..im pretty excited. But ( Read more... )

I haven't written in this in a while, but it seems as though so much has happened. I went to Texas for my dad's wedding which was a surprisingly good time. I saw amanda for a brief period of time, but I talked to her the other day and she moved back in with my dad a few days after I left... figures. Anyways, I had prom last weekend. That ended ( Read more... )

This weekend went well. Friday night was kind of dull. My mother was not being so cooperative but by the end of the night she was cool. I went with ben and matt to jesse D's house. It was a nice little fire and I got wrecked in pong with Alex...partly perhaps because he was trashed ( Read more... )

so prom went really well. It was such a relief once everything was done and ready to go. I had a great time with Vinny. I must say, a much better time than I was expecting to have. I think it was because I was all stressed out. But anywho...the past week seems to be going by quite fast. I'm hoping these next few weeks will pass by pretty fast ( Read more... )

I've been feeling sick lately. I hope I'm all better by Friday. With my luck I won't be. But anyways...Today was tiring. School was a waste as always. After school I had to organize tables for Prom which is in 3 days. We have sooo much to do. Not too excited about it. I'm sure it will end up being a good time though. I'm going with vinny ( Read more... )