this entry is gonna be filled with quotes.. i'm in that sort of mood...

tomorrow i have to begin preparing with my mom's divorce lawyer... preparing to testify against my dad. and i want to... it's just one of those situations where you're very torn. we are not in contact, he does nothing for me and as sad as that seems, i would rather have it this ( Read more... )

i don't get how people can be so tactless so... dispicable ( Read more... )

by the way....

there is nothing more i hate than people who can't personally ask me about my business.  if you have to call someone else and put your nose into personal shit that i put in here, i see you as a pussy and busy body, and i don't appreciate it at all.  you have my number, or by God you can get your hands on if you wanted to - ASK ME - if ( Read more... )

i've been doing a lot of soul searching and self-reflection lately.  actually, i do that a lot.  but i think in this little episode i have been alarmingly realistic in my train of thought and the conclusions i've come to.  i've decided to make some huge changes, and almost all of them are things that i know i should have done but couldn't bring ( Read more... )

just got back into btown, yeah it's late but i wanted to drive at night and take my time cuz i felt i had some thinking to do.  being home was great, and kinda made me realize that i miss it more than i think.  just seeing all my old friends, all the friends that are still near and dear to me was good.  we saw Budd off at 4:30 this morning cuz he ( Read more... )

...I AM your nymphetamine girl...

do you ever feel like you're trying to get through to someone and they just won't listen ( Read more... )

ahh...where to start.  the page is blank, however my mind is not.  i don't really know what to say here, nor how to say it - but i guess i'll take a shot.  i'm so emotionally strained right now.  and to be honest, my friends and my schedule keep me from thinking about it for the most part.  it's just like, what do you do in a catch22 situation? oh ( Read more... )

so dizzle was dogging on me because i haven't written in the journal for a while... but i have been meaning to write something... now is scarcely the time so that will come another day... but right now here's a little time line ( Read more... )

so after my little drunken freak-out phase, and coming to the realization that i don't need to be drinking heavily anymore given that some circumstances in my life can lead me back to the land of dangerous phsychological problems, i feel a lot morel like myself lately. Spring is almost here, the beautiful weather that God has bestowed upon us ( Read more... )