its amazing how much a bottle of wine
and some good music will take the edge off.

edge?
what edge?

fine&&dandy.

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its becoming increasingly harder
to snap back to reality
not that anyone should want to.

also also
taking a class for ekg monitor technician
so i can have an easy breezy schedule while in school
its so relieving to finally have a plan
i just want to fast forward 2 years, i cant wait to start.

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sometimes its so hard to keep your chin up.
sometimes its hard to be strong when you feel so weak.
sometimes none of it seems worth the effort.
and sometimes you put every ounce of your being in making it worth the effort.

sometimes you win.
sometimes you lose.
sometimes the only thing in the world that you need
is a shoulder to cry on.

now would be a really good time for me to have a friend.
just one.
to talk me out of it.

i think i've finally evened out my karma.
about frigging time.

in other news, felicia is getting into the porn business.
going far, that one.

there's nothing to fear but fear itself, right?

last night
i cried
i laughed
i drank, swam, sung.
despite my efforts, i haven't kept the terror at bay.

i always thought i was strong-willed,
but now im filled with doubt
and im not even sure the cause is worth the fight.
cross your fingers for me.