I've done a bad bad thing.....
I don't know what I was thinking, but I discovered (I won't say by accident, pretty sure I knew what I was doing, just couldn't stop myself at the time) that one of my exes has an lj account.
I wasn't going to look, really tried my hardest not to. He looks good. Happy. Apparently got his advanced degree. I didn't read more than the first few entries...but that was enough to make me hurt. I know he and I probably wouldn't have made it much longer, but I still hurt from the WAY he went about the breakup. I actually think I loved another (before him) more than him, but he was comfortable, made me feel good about myself. Helped me out of my shell a bit. Made me feel more alive for a while.
Now of course I am having the typical pisces reaction. I won't give you the embarrassing details. Still have some good memories though (and a few momentos from that time that I am fighting the urge to search and destroy to be honest).
Oh, and on the other guy that I mentioned ...comrade_phyre , I think it was an odd year when I ended things with him as well. Theory still holds I guess.
I wasn't going to look, really tried my hardest not to. He looks good. Happy. Apparently got his advanced degree. I didn't read more than the first few entries...but that was enough to make me hurt. I know he and I probably wouldn't have made it much longer, but I still hurt from the WAY he went about the breakup. I actually think I loved another (before him) more than him, but he was comfortable, made me feel good about myself. Helped me out of my shell a bit. Made me feel more alive for a while.
Now of course I am having the typical pisces reaction. I won't give you the embarrassing details. Still have some good memories though (and a few momentos from that time that I am fighting the urge to search and destroy to be honest).
Oh, and on the other guy that I mentioned ...comrade_phyre , I think it was an odd year when I ended things with him as well. Theory still holds I guess.