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what the fuck was i expecting? To find someone who has no fucking moral life values no NOTHING
and just change them ?
ofcourse this feeling is long overdue.
i should feel dissapointment when the day comes and the person i expected to be my PRINCE
just gives me a big slap in the face.
why am i attracted to failure.
it huurrtttssss and i should not complain.
ive asked for it.
what was i expecting? i expected this relationship to go somewhere.
but it seems to have taken a really quick stop.
it went from living in a dream world
slowly coming back into reality.
reality has set in and now i want the dream back.
the dream is never coming back.
the reality is either someone conforms to society.
or the relationship is slowly going to continue to die out.
i can use drugs and still fucking function.
even his friends have jobs.
i picked the worst of the worst. and i fell in love.
its not in lust, its not in like. its in love.
everything you fall into you have to fall out of?
i dont want to fall out of love, ever...
i want the dream back.
the dream comes back everytime were together.
all reality floats away and everything is "perfect"
time stands still.
there is a day when we could be togheter as much as we liked.
that day can come when he passes a drug test.
that day will never come.
"do you not want me anymore"
that hurts so bad.
i dont know what to say or what to do.
i do want him
i hate this
i dont want myself any more.
and just change them ?
ofcourse this feeling is long overdue.
i should feel dissapointment when the day comes and the person i expected to be my PRINCE
just gives me a big slap in the face.
why am i attracted to failure.
it huurrtttssss and i should not complain.
ive asked for it.
what was i expecting? i expected this relationship to go somewhere.
but it seems to have taken a really quick stop.
it went from living in a dream world
slowly coming back into reality.
reality has set in and now i want the dream back.
the dream is never coming back.
the reality is either someone conforms to society.
or the relationship is slowly going to continue to die out.
i can use drugs and still fucking function.
even his friends have jobs.
i picked the worst of the worst. and i fell in love.
its not in lust, its not in like. its in love.
everything you fall into you have to fall out of?
i dont want to fall out of love, ever...
i want the dream back.
the dream comes back everytime were together.
all reality floats away and everything is "perfect"
time stands still.
there is a day when we could be togheter as much as we liked.
that day can come when he passes a drug test.
that day will never come.
"do you not want me anymore"
that hurts so bad.
i dont know what to say or what to do.
i do want him
i hate this
i dont want myself any more.