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[sthallion]

I feel really shit and depressed and I know why but I don't want to talk about it I just need to say it out loud but can't cus I have to look happy all the time so here I am writing it but don't feel any better.

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[becki_lee]

*huggge hugs*!!!

[becki_lee]

thank you sweets xx

[o0godsgrace0o]

I know all about having to put up a facade so nobody else gets worried, or sad. It drains on you. I don't have any advice, b/c I'm still wading through myself....

I'll add you to my prayers for whatever that's worth.

[sthallion]

Thank you so much, you have no idea what that means to me and that after so long not being in contact you are doing that for me. Thank you honestly. I didn't think you still posted here, how are you? X

Hello again...

[o0godsgrace0o]

I'm taking it one day at a time. I haven't been posting here alot b/c frankly life has been quite overwhelming. I've grown up quite alot over the last year 08 sucked, royally! I'm still dealing with the last major thing I wrote about on here. My fiance is still in jail, I knew before this that people were in jail and didn't do what the authorities said they did, but i didn't ever believe it would touch my life. I'm having a crisis of Faith about once a week, just wondering how there are rapist, child molesters and such roaming the streets and my Phill is locked up. I don't understand it at all. Not alot of my friends know, that's where my putting up a facade comes into play. It's so hard. I was never a cry-er, but I've been breaking down quite a bit over the last year and some months...It's crazy. So if you need someone to bounce pain or frustration off of, you don't hesitate.

Re: Hello again...

[sthallion]

this is my private email address: noemilamanna@gmail.com, if you ever just want to let things off your chest please use it, I will just listen and I will not judge, I am so sorry to hear about Phil, that is a disgrace and I wish I could do something to help you, please let me know if I can, I feel like my problems are tiny in comparison and feel like a fraud for trying to pass off my little problems for something serious. You said not a lot of your friends know and I know what you mean about the facade, always having to look happy and smiling because the second you don't there are a 1000 questions you don't want to answer and attention you never asked for. Please don't waste your prayers on me, please think only of yourself, it's what you need to do. I will not ask anyt more question sbecause I don't want to pry, but please talk as much as you want to if it will help you. Hope you and Phil are reunited soon.