i'm gonna get a little more serious with it and start putting stuff on youtube...was really inspired by some other musicians on youtube...posted one of the songs that i wrote on it so far...perhaps i'll make it more public at some point

for brief moments tonight i felt it...and i feel it strongly now...i wish that it would go away...but this is what it means to be human and alive

Acts
 22The crowd joined in the attack against Paul and Silas, and the magistrates ordered them to be stripped and beaten. 23After they had been severely flogged, they were thrown into prison, and the jailer was commanded to guard them carefully. 24Upon receiving such orders, he put them in the inner cell and fastened their feet in the stocks.
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How do you know a voice is really God's voice?

David Wilkerson's devotional for today was relevant to this:

"How many busy children of God today have never had the voice come to them? They are busy witnessing-doing good-praying for a spiritual awakening-fasting-so intense-so dedicated. Yet, they have heard everything but the voice of the Lord."

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there are some things that i am actively avoiding -- well, mainly to do with girls ( Read more... )

i think i've finally moved on from where i was in terms of my feelings of meaninglessness...the realization came in a way i wasn't expecting though...sometime last week, i had started feeling strongly about a number of things...whereas i barely had the will to live at various points in the last year, i now fully embrace life and have felt tinges of ( Read more... )

The past keeps coming back to me lately...I really want to play soccer. I want to continue track. I wish I had spent more time in music.

I guess, now that I don't feel like everything is worthless, it makes me value some things too much? Maybe it's healthy -- to want to do things like this, I haven't quite felt like this in awhile.

i wasn't going to write originally...but something came over me at the last minute as i was getting ready to go sleep

went through part of ecclesiastes in further search for the meaning of life, also read some studies on it on the web...didn't find the answers i was looking for unfortunately, but oh well...if things were that easy, would you ever ( Read more... )

I haven't been able to read any more of Boundaries because it was my neighbor's and I had to leave Seattle...so yesterday, I read The Great Divorce. I've read it before--but it was at a point in my life where I sort of skimmed and never slowed down enough to really take in its full meaning. This time, I was able to take in its full glory. In ( Read more... )

it's been a really good time at home...coming home is always an interesting time for me, it's usually a disruption of habits i've formed in new haven...usually it disrupts good habits and i come back not feeling that great...but this time, it's been very different, i feel pretty refreshed right now...who knows, maybe it's all the sun seattle's been ( Read more... )