Loosing You ( Read more... )

Lost in you
I loose my self in your eyes
I never hide my love from you
My heart has been waiting for you the whole time
Locked up inside this restless heart are my feelings for you
And only you hold the key
I can love you
Let me show you
I can love you like no other

Remember

I can’t stop thinking of her

Every where I turn I am reminded of her

I dream of her face

I find myself longing for her

Then I return to the reality of her betrayal

I know I still love her

I also know that what we did wasn’t right

But I don’t regret a second of it

I cry my self to sleep at night thinking of her

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Scars ( Read more... )

                                                                         Free

Free from your grasp

That was once your warm embrace

Free from the insanity

That I was very much a part of

Free from the lies

That I was told and told myself

Free from your gaze

That I used to live for

Free from your kiss

That blinded me so badly

Free from you

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You
I defended you until the very end
I let you control my world
I let you tear me apart
I bled for your sins
I was punished for our mistake
I took the fault
I died and you never knew
I lied for you
I loved you
I failed
I let you bring me down
I let you drive me insane
And all the while I just sat back and watched
-Ash Bell

                                                          Insane fantasy

I told you my deepest darkest secrets

I told you things that I told no one else

Do I regret?

No!

But what we had was like an insane fantasy

-Ash Bell

Forever Stained
Stained are my heart and soul
I need to let it out
To release this betrayal
Slice my skin
I need to let it flow out of my body
Down to the floor
Drip down my arm
I want the blood to cover up my stains
I need to resuscitate my heart
I need to live again
Bring me back from the dead
Let me live and live free
-Ash Bell

                                                                         I cant

I sit here and try to tell you how I feel

But I can’t explain it

What can I say?

The cold steel

It’s a release

The cold steel it slays my last defense

It lets me release some of the pain

I know that it’s not right

But I need it

I sit here and bleed onto the page

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                                                            Betrayal

The first word that came to mind was betrayal

Did I mean nothing to you?

I fell in love with the person you showed me

That person apparently wasn’t you

Why when I told you “I love you” did you tell me you loved me?

When we kissed did you feel nothing

Were you even there?

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