... i wish i was stronger than this.

[stiklaniyalubov]

So this is exactly how i feel right now.

Im in this room, with 50 people. All being people I know. All the people on my friends list for example... and some of my others friends too. And, Im in this room.. and everyones talking... and all the while, i feel like im in the center of the room... and im trying to reach people, to touch them... and im

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[abullet2urheart]

aww broo we're hanging out thursday =] hopefully?

don't worry i dislike my parents too ahhhh =[ but anyway everything will get better so don't worry!!!

<33

[stiklaniyalubov]

yea. we are. if my parents let me out of my FUCKING house. my FUCKING parents. AhHhhhh. its like.. horrid. ehhhh.

& if things dont get better... fuck it..

as my friend marcy said.. its just 3 years. just 3.

and then im fucking OUT.

i feel like im talking about jail. heh. <3

[abullet2urheart]

haha well just get on good terms with them .. and usually things get better or like avoid them to calm down and stuf .. and 3 years are a looong time =] i only got 2 whoo hoo!

[stiklaniyalubov]

i cant. everything i do is WRONG. and my hair is fading. the BITCH wont let my redye it. so im gonna look like SHIT comming into school.

great FUCKING way to start of the year. =o(

things could be worse.

and theyll probablly get worse b/c i just said that.

[_cutiecourt]

well everyone has little conversations like that on aol or whatever. stupid and meaningless. i dont know everyone. i just know my few friends.

[stiklaniyalubov]

yea, i know that. =\ i dont have a "few" friends... its like all by pairs... me +cait.... me+alex me+chels me+sash. its never like all of us... and when it is.. i always get managed to become forgotten. =o(

[stiklaniyalubov]

thanks though, you have a good point. =)

[__lifeonstandby]

hi. feel better ♥

<33

[stiklaniyalubov]

thanks brit. see you in school

[linkinpark327]

I want to hang out!!! Girls night totally! I <3 you...I hope that wasn't directed at me...I think I know who it is...I wish I could help you with them...but some people can't be helped. Sorry people are being such assholes to you :- [

<33 Cait

=o)

[stiklaniyalubov]

OF COURSE IT WASNT DIRECTED AT YOU! lol!! its not really directed towards anyone in particular.. just all my friends... kinda. but def. not you. we ALWAYS hang out. and we TALK about like... everything. and its rad. ohhh, and yea. i hate it when ppl are like that. =( i manage to open my heart up to them, and they just fucking crush me...
girls night is going to rock
my moms letting me redo my hair black. <3333 (blackER.. its gonna be DARK.. lol)
umm. what elseeeee.?

PS. we need to buy more candy at shoprite and talk to the guy. <33 hahahaha

[xx_woody701_xx]

Maybe if you dressed in a banana suit people would pay more atttention to you?

Sorry, I'm just trying to lighten the mood a little. feel better or whatever it is you do in this situation

[xx_woody701_xx]

Actually, I know what it's like. Imagine going to a party hosted by your cousin whos one of the most well known kids in school and he's the only person there you know.

[stiklaniyalubov]

but you got to meet new people.

[xx_woody701_xx]

Not really. I kinda just sat on the couch, and got up a few times to get drink for a few hours, thats all.