facing my fear

[stillbothered]

so i need to write, mainly b/c last night's entry made no sense to a lot of people. and partly b/c it came before Andy called me. He leaves at 4:30 pm today. His plane takes off at 9:30, but it's in Boston and you have to be at the airport waaaay ahead of time too. So, he leaves at 4:30. And we talked for a while last night, I cried for a long time

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[mever]

Oh Katy!! I know exactly how you feel about needing to be needed... or at least needing to feel needed and wanted especially at parties and social gatherings. To me, you are one of the strongest people I know and sincerely nice. You have always, ALWAYS, been there for me and defended me throughout all the drama of rooming this past year and you are amazing! It's easy to say but not easy to do, but you have such an amazing personality, an amazing person, that you should not let what other people are thinking or what they do, when they don't come looking for you let that bother you. I know, I know. It seems impossible at times. It's funny cause i've done the same thing at parties. I've gone off into the house and crawled into a corner to be by myself and just wait and see if/when i would be missed. but the thing is, at parties especially, people are into themselves. They are into the guy/girl they are sitting next to and they aren't looking for other people and they aren't keeping track of where people are or what they are doing. It