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my life has pretty much been turned upside-down.
michael and i broke up. apparently nothing to do with me, he just fell out of love and cant cope living with someone. it came out of the blue. i thought things were awesome until about a fortnight ago. i never expected this to happen. i thought i was gonna share the rest of my life with him. but i guess the world has other ideas..
anyway, i went and spent a few days in adelaide with mum and then went to spend a few days in melbourne with my best friends. i thought my only option was going to be moving back in with mum, but after spending a few days there i dont think i can do it. i will be trapped in seaford with no transport. i dont want the price of taking this chance and having it fail to be regressing five years of my life. so i think i am gonna move back to melbourne. get a little one bedroom flat with my cat so i wont have to deal with anybody else. its expensive but i applied for centrelink today so maybe they can help with the bond and rent until i find work.
im just shellshocked i guess. it just feels like this is not the way things were supposed to turn out and its so disappointing. one of the hardest things you can ever hear is that the person you love doesnt love you anymore. im terrified i will never find someone im so compatible with ever again. i have to go back to being alone, and although im used to it, now i know what life is like when im not its going to be so much harder.
anyway, if anyone in melbourne knows of any studio apartments that are reasonably close to the city for $150 a week, let me know.
michael and i broke up. apparently nothing to do with me, he just fell out of love and cant cope living with someone. it came out of the blue. i thought things were awesome until about a fortnight ago. i never expected this to happen. i thought i was gonna share the rest of my life with him. but i guess the world has other ideas..
anyway, i went and spent a few days in adelaide with mum and then went to spend a few days in melbourne with my best friends. i thought my only option was going to be moving back in with mum, but after spending a few days there i dont think i can do it. i will be trapped in seaford with no transport. i dont want the price of taking this chance and having it fail to be regressing five years of my life. so i think i am gonna move back to melbourne. get a little one bedroom flat with my cat so i wont have to deal with anybody else. its expensive but i applied for centrelink today so maybe they can help with the bond and rent until i find work.
im just shellshocked i guess. it just feels like this is not the way things were supposed to turn out and its so disappointing. one of the hardest things you can ever hear is that the person you love doesnt love you anymore. im terrified i will never find someone im so compatible with ever again. i have to go back to being alone, and although im used to it, now i know what life is like when im not its going to be so much harder.
anyway, if anyone in melbourne knows of any studio apartments that are reasonably close to the city for $150 a week, let me know.