I got to talk to Jenny before I left. I got the impression that this was one of those things I'm going to do if it means I can spend my life with you things. but aren't all weddings? I think the amount of fun you have or if you look you want to be there depends if your into the dance, eat cake, social kinda person. I am. I had a blast at mine. I think Jenny's more like Eric. He wanted to say I do and go home. But family members seem to want their wedding party, as he found out with ours. All in all my wedding/ reception didn't feel like a wedding/reception either
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Yeah, I think that's the impression I got. I guess I just have high expectations. The wedding was cool and not long and agonizing. The whole cutting in thing just bugged me enough to ruin everything else. Seriously, I just always get the feeling that I fight for attention from everybody so when I lost the bit of attention I had at the moment it was ... like I said "the story of my life." lol.
Hopefully when they move and the means are there, a visit to see them will not be one of those fighting for attention deals. I'm not bitter about the whole thing as much as I keep feeling like I should give up on things. But I know from experience that the result I want to get from my giving up is not what will happen...it never does. I find a way to piss people off. :0)
Jenny's ahead of me in one thing. I think she actually talked to everyone at her wedding. At mine there was so many people cutting in and taking me places that I think I only made it around to half of them. Or maybe I was just stupid (nothing new there...)
I suspect you still might feel your fighting for attention when you visit because its not just Jenny anymore. Its Jenny and Andrew. He'll probably always come first to her.
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Not crazy so much as really upset with the way my career outlook is.
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Hopefully when they move and the means are there, a visit to see them will not be one of those fighting for attention deals. I'm not bitter about the whole thing as much as I keep feeling like I should give up on things. But I know from experience that the result I want to get from my giving up is not what will happen...it never does. I find a way to piss people off. :0)
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I suspect you still might feel your fighting for attention when you visit because its not just Jenny anymore. Its Jenny and Andrew. He'll probably always come first to her.
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and for you to add me. hah
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