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[stillshattered]

i have a secret, one that i've never, ever spoken aloud before, even though some people may have already guessed from my behavior.
i'm suicidal. 
it's bad right now. all i want to do is stop hurting. g. says (and has been saying for the past two years) that it'll get better, life gets easier, the hurt will go away.
he's lying. it never gets any

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[denial_land]

okay, sorry that comments about your layout seem out of place with this entry, so feel free to delete them :-/

[coquette]

I'm sorry but I stumbled upon your site from the Kurt Layouts and I want you to understand that you are not alone and there are many of us out here that feel/have felt the way you do right now.

When you're truly ready to seek help - it's available.

My thoughts are with you.

[stillshattered]

i appreciate the comment. it always helps to know there's someone out there that understands.

money is a big issue as far as professional help -- i don't have insurance at my work yet.

i have hopeline on my speed dial. and while i feel awful having to have a suicide prevention hotline on my speed dial since i've used it so often (especially recently)...it helps. and at least i'm still here.