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OK, so I have been really frustrated lately and now I will tell you why.
I have been stressed a lot about frisbee the last couple of weeks. I started getting shin splints, but since the team usually is unforgiving about shin splints (at least that is how I feel, correct me if I'm wrong), I felt compelled to play through it. Plus, who wants to sit on the sideline anyway? I love playing.
Anyway, I eventually went to the doctor and got diagnosed for shin splints. In the back of my mind I knew it was, but I had sort of been in denial. Anyway, she said to take time off. I tried, but soon after I was encouraged by a coach to ease back into it. So I tried. And it hurt, but I did it anyway. Then after a while it REALLY hurt, so I decided to stop playing. (that was at DUI) I took two weeks off and this past weekend was regionals, for which we went to Vancouver, BC (expensive!). I tried to play the first day and played two games and then stopped. The second day I played 1.5 games and then stopped. PAIN!!! Anyway, we got 2nd place, yay! And that means we made it to nationals!
The bad news. I went to the doctor yesterday and got an appointment for a bone scan today. I went and almost cried when he injected the isotope shit in me--I hate needles! I got the scan and the guy doesn't read the tests, but he says it looks like I have a stress fracture and that they usually takes six weeks to heal. I called home afterwards and almost started crying on the phone. My parents keep telling me to not play, and I really agree, but it is so hard!
So I really can't play at nationals. I am going to the doctor on tuesday and I will aske her what to do, but it seems like that is the case. The second big problem is nationals. It is in OHIO! Who the hell goes there? No one! Which is why the flights are way expensive. I really don't think I can afford to pay for a flight there, and I really don't know if I want to use all my savings to fly and WATCH them play. As much as I love playing, it really sucks to be on the sidelines (I would be a terrible coach, hah!). I feel like I can't afford it, but if I don't go that is like quitting. It's my senior year and I fucking want to play! UGH! I can't express the frustration right now! I can't figure out what to do!
On another note, I bombed a test today, I have one tomorrow which I will fail and another friday. Also, I have a HUGE project due tomorrow for which I need to use school computers because that is the only place where the program is. So I have to go tonight and hope the lab is still open or I will just have to turn it in late.
I am getting fucking wasted on friday to try and drown my worries, and then saturday I hope to make it to stinton beach and then work on saturday night and sunday afternoon before hitting the books once again to study for my tuesday test and do the four labs due monday and tuesday.
can someone please shoot me now and get this over with? I can't cope right now and all I want to do is sleep, but I really don't have time to. And now I have to go pay $27 to frisbee people for shit and go to practice before my allnighter to get my shit done.
edit: oh yeah, I am also sad to miss running bay 2 breakers and miss playing IM's with all my friend's I have played with for the last three years. They are all graduating, so it's our last quarter together and I can't even play.
I have been stressed a lot about frisbee the last couple of weeks. I started getting shin splints, but since the team usually is unforgiving about shin splints (at least that is how I feel, correct me if I'm wrong), I felt compelled to play through it. Plus, who wants to sit on the sideline anyway? I love playing.
Anyway, I eventually went to the doctor and got diagnosed for shin splints. In the back of my mind I knew it was, but I had sort of been in denial. Anyway, she said to take time off. I tried, but soon after I was encouraged by a coach to ease back into it. So I tried. And it hurt, but I did it anyway. Then after a while it REALLY hurt, so I decided to stop playing. (that was at DUI) I took two weeks off and this past weekend was regionals, for which we went to Vancouver, BC (expensive!). I tried to play the first day and played two games and then stopped. The second day I played 1.5 games and then stopped. PAIN!!! Anyway, we got 2nd place, yay! And that means we made it to nationals!
The bad news. I went to the doctor yesterday and got an appointment for a bone scan today. I went and almost cried when he injected the isotope shit in me--I hate needles! I got the scan and the guy doesn't read the tests, but he says it looks like I have a stress fracture and that they usually takes six weeks to heal. I called home afterwards and almost started crying on the phone. My parents keep telling me to not play, and I really agree, but it is so hard!
So I really can't play at nationals. I am going to the doctor on tuesday and I will aske her what to do, but it seems like that is the case. The second big problem is nationals. It is in OHIO! Who the hell goes there? No one! Which is why the flights are way expensive. I really don't think I can afford to pay for a flight there, and I really don't know if I want to use all my savings to fly and WATCH them play. As much as I love playing, it really sucks to be on the sidelines (I would be a terrible coach, hah!). I feel like I can't afford it, but if I don't go that is like quitting. It's my senior year and I fucking want to play! UGH! I can't express the frustration right now! I can't figure out what to do!
On another note, I bombed a test today, I have one tomorrow which I will fail and another friday. Also, I have a HUGE project due tomorrow for which I need to use school computers because that is the only place where the program is. So I have to go tonight and hope the lab is still open or I will just have to turn it in late.
I am getting fucking wasted on friday to try and drown my worries, and then saturday I hope to make it to stinton beach and then work on saturday night and sunday afternoon before hitting the books once again to study for my tuesday test and do the four labs due monday and tuesday.
can someone please shoot me now and get this over with? I can't cope right now and all I want to do is sleep, but I really don't have time to. And now I have to go pay $27 to frisbee people for shit and go to practice before my allnighter to get my shit done.
edit: oh yeah, I am also sad to miss running bay 2 breakers and miss playing IM's with all my friend's I have played with for the last three years. They are all graduating, so it's our last quarter together and I can't even play.