I'm fucked up

[stimpsonj]

I think I'm on the verge of a mental breakdown. Seriously. I'm not fucking happy. I've never been. Why do I keep trying to cover that up and go on instead of fixing my problems? I wish I could just get what I've wanted. My whole life I've been taught that I'm not worthy of recieving anything that I truly want. Everyone else has made those decisions

Comments

[prettykitsune]

I though your whole motivational entry about competition was great, what happened to plan of action?

[stimpsonj]

The reason I posted this entry was because I was down today. I'm still thinking about how I need to change and it made me realize some things in the past that are really upsetting. I shouldn't dwell on the past, so I'm getting through it. I really am improving tho.

[prettykitsune]

Good, I'm proud of you.