All these things I can do without. You can either focus on these and become engulfed, or you can try to block them out and just live. There are many viewpoints to a situation. Positive or negative. That's what makes us free is to be able to choose for ourselves. Just simple decisions. I am ready to go back to school. But for what? What does my ( Read more... )

I'm giving this livejournal thing a rest. I'm getting tired of sharing my thoughts with strangers instead of real people (this sentence does not include my real friends). Anyways, goodbye.

I went to Lake Elsinore for the 4th. I was really crazy. Everybody just seems so lawless when it comes to celebrating down there. Just glad I came back in one piece.

Sex is a drug. No different than marijuana, crack, or even alcohol. The only difference is that its more widely accepted to get your "high" off of sex. Well at least if your married or committed. The only problem is what drives me to women is the prospect of sex, even if I want to be with that person without sex being involved. I can't do the fling ( Read more... )

I just got back from a date with a girl from my work. She's a cute girl a little older than me. I think it went ok, but not great because of course I am here writing this journal alone.That's a good sign, since we're not rushing anything, but also a bad sign because I didn't even kiss her. Maybe we're better off friends since I work with her. She ( Read more... )

I can't seem to get to sleep without getting this off my mind. I don't want to sound like an asshole but I hate my father. I believe it's a justified hatred. The thing is that ever since I can remember he didn't really spend a whole lot of time raising me or my brother. And the times that he did he was really bad at it. He would try to teach me ( Read more... )

I was watching Ferris Bueller's day off last night on TV and I was blown away by how relevant that movie is to my life. I feel like I'm exactly like Cameron, the guy who is all depressed cuz his dad is a jerk. It's wierd because I heard somewhere that the movie was actually a teenage suicide prevention movie and I was thinking about that the whole ( Read more... )

Yes! I am so irresponsible, here I am drunk as a skunk and I have work tomorrow. Being 21 rocks my socks off. I'm rolling in tomorrow hung over, but whatever, as long as I have fun right?

Hooray I'm 21! er well I have been since Sunday. But this means I get to go to bars this weekend!

All of a sudden I was thinking about how crappy my childhood was. Few friends, getting yelled at by my dad, being neglected, etc etc. I feel like a wuss for having regrets about my life. I shouldn't be complaining cuz its not like my life is in the gutter. So many people have it much worse than I do, yet its hard to be happy when you know that you ( Read more... )