its late can't you tell ( Read more... )

day off today... didn't matter though cause i still woke up at the same time i always do. i don't even need an alarm clock anymore, that sucks. I'm programed. I got up, i was excited about the day. i felt like i had so much to acomplish. i felt fucking fantastic for a change. last few weeks have been odd i guess.. i felt like a hypocondriac. ( Read more... )

i wrote this a year ago to someone ( Read more... )

everyone told me i threw a great party the other night. "Adam you always throw great parties" "your such a good host" listen, its you guys that make the party... all i did was provide a forum and some tasty beverages. you guys made the party. no matter what the setting, the situation, or the circumstances its the people i surround myself with the ( Read more... )

this is my anthem of late ( Read more... )

I got a phone call the other day and it made me realize that i'm insane. It became clear to me that my mind fabricates and facilitates its own reality when left alone. I also realized that i force myself to believe that everything is my fault.. say for instance, people stop calling or hanging out. its my fault right? I mean, there can be no other ( Read more... )

I'm in a weird place it seems. wait no, i'm positively in a fucked up place. however you want to look at it, physically or mentally. everything is fucked up. First of all i can't think like i used to, i can't concentrate. my mind is a maelstrom of thoughts and concerns all of the time. I can't focus. I have such wonderful things to say. I'm at a ( Read more... )

I'm sittin here alone on trick or treat night in my place, i bought a crap load of "fun sized" candy. (i fail to see how its "fun sized", i think if i were a kid and i got a regular sized candy bar i'd be way more happy, therefore having more fun)but anyway, i bought $18 worth of candy and gave away about $6. I live in a fucking trailor park! ( Read more... )

What am I? Am i a fucking car sitting on the lot that you test drive for an hour... you drive me back and then try out the other one with more features? then you forget about me. Well guess what... i might be a used car, but i got low mileage sweetheart. I'm exactly what you need. I'm dependable, honest, genuine.... I'm not going to lie. I love, I ( Read more... )

did some partying this week with some friends, not sure i approve of drinking on a tuesday night but after some whiskey I could have given a shit. Got super shit-faced and was having a great time. Still stumbling around @ 1am (expecting to get up for work in 3 1/2hrs), i found myself alone when everyone decided to go to bed... There i was alone, ( Read more... )