So What now?
What path do i follow?

I hate this.
Everything is opaque.
Nothing promises happiness, nothing promises success.

Im in a maze.
no way out.

My indecisive nature is ripping my spleen,clean out through my chest ( Read more... )

I'm so bad at this. I feel so used. And so stupid.

I dont wanna feel like this anymore.

Im stranded on Planet earth except no one is human and everyone is happy.

So far same shit.

Thank god keren's coming home.

Im so cynical.

You have absolutely no idea whats about to come.

And like the sea im constanly changing from calm to ill.

I am at the edge again.
Sick Cycle carousel you are piercing a nerve
somewhere in my spine
leaving me
immobile.
leaving me
stuck to the ground by the roots
of my
being.
cutting myself free is not an option anymore.

2009 please be good. please be amazing. I need a break.

So therapy has suddenly become an option.

Merry Christmas.

xoxo

Ive been waiting.
Anxiety seeps into my bones and lingers.
Youre a cancer.
and
im calling an SOS
ive been waiting to be rescued since the day i was born.