I'm really upset right now but i don't feel like talking about it soo i will tell you about something else well really ask you ( Read more... )

I'm so angry and scared and un comfortable. I keep sitting here trying to remeber what exactly happened , and i lose it. My mom keeps walking in asking if i'm crying again, and we sit and talk for a while. She says i need to stop thinking about it and that those things just happens sometimes and you have got to be strong, i say ok and stop crying ( Read more... )

I hate how all of a sudden it's all on me. And how hardly anyoen understands. eXCEPT (JODI AND ISIS) I don't get how all of a sudden cause justin has a girl friend clarisa can come. Every other past hotel party no one else was even allowed in the hotel except the so called group. And even if soem poeple are comefortable with an outsider coming some ( Read more... )

So i just finished what i was typing up for Mr. Johnsens final thingy but i'm scared cause i didn't do it right. I'm afraid he'll put it up on the over head like he did with that other girls paper she wrote and make fun of it. Cause it's not exactly a speech that he assigned. Maybe he won't read it until school is out and then i won't have him ( Read more... )

So today was an event full day lol! Well i picked up nicola and zak like usuall this morning then we got our jumbo jacks with cheese w/o onions or tomatoes and a medium dr. pepper. then we drove to school parked an complained about having to go to school today. Me and zak were excited to start working so we can tear up Abercrombie& Fitch together ( Read more... )

So i'm sunburnt, and trying to figure out how to do all of my finals, yuck , so leroy leaves tommorow to visit his mom and he's bringing back nancy his wife. It's the biggest joke ever. He's still legally married and almost none of his fammilly knows they aren't together anymmore and she comes and goes to the doctor here so she stays with leroy. ( Read more... )

I'm in the library right now and i was going to write about soemthing deep but hollis is hovering over my every word . Which makes me nervous and uncomfortable so i can't get deep. or tell a story or something ( Read more... )

All i can do is cry
Waste away and die,
I am nothing in your
real world of lies,
It hurts to smile
Feels natural to cry
I no longer trust
who we have become
is no longer one,
I can't look in your
eyes as I once peered
too your heart , I see
me as nothing in your eyes.

I found a suicide note today in the girls bathroom . I sat down and looked over at the toilet paper and i see writing. I read then looked under the stalls and all around for the girl but i didn't see anyone ( Read more... )

I hate my life right now , i think i am in a really low point. I'm lost i don't know up from down. I don't know who to turn to or who to trust. I need help i don't know what to do i see my friends in the hall and i can't even raise my hand to say hi. I feel lifeless and alone. Maybe i need to try yet another phsycologist , or raise my zoloft dosage ( Read more... )