Comments | storiesforboys: reasons not to be me (apart from ugly and mean and ugly)

storiesforboys

reasons not to be me (apart from ugly and mean and ugly)

Mar 30, 2004 16:14

so yeah, my mom is in the emergency room right now, they said if she'd waited a day longer to go in, she could have had a stroke and probably died.

colleges are either waitlisting or rejecting me (when i know kids who've gotten in who clearly aren't as smart or involved as me ( Read more... )

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xxmy_escapexx March 30 2004, 21:42:57 UTC

i hope things get better soon! seriously katie, you're like the smartest person i know, and if colleges aren't accepting you, then i don't know how anybody could be accepted. you really have worked hard. you were in like every AP class offered at sabis and in pretty much all of the senior classes as a junior, and you're the head prefect of the school. i swear, admissions people are idiots.

what happened with your mother? she's going to be okay, right?

lovelovelove
<3Heather

storiesforboys March 31 2004, 03:03:15 UTC

i'm seriously not trying to be stuck up about it, y'know? i just don't get it, and no one else can. waitlisting gives me some hope, but not much, considering i can't be guaranteed financial aid if i'm given a spot. and rejection is my hugest fear, completely. and i'm definitely facing my fear right now. i just want this time to be over and forgotten about.

my mom's home now, i don't know i guess she's been under super stress lately and it gave her really really high blood pressure, so high it could have killed her. and if she hadn't gone for her annual physical today she probably would have never known.

much love heather, thank you <3

sinisterfoxx March 30 2004, 22:20:44 UTC

katie, I know you don't like your mom much but I'm still sorry to hear that she's in the hospital. Why does it seem like your life can never just go smoothly without all the dramatics, not like you ask for any of it though. I hope things get easier for you. I'm sorry dear and I love you.

xoxo

storiesforboys March 31 2004, 03:08:57 UTC

i don't know, maybe some of this i deserved, i'm not the greatest person in the world. i just wish it wasn't all at once. it was so strange though, hearing about my mom, it just completely scared the fuck out of me. considering a few days ago i was angry and said she could die and i wouldn't care, like it was some kind of sign. i don't know. life can't always be peachy, i suppose.

i love you too darling, so much. thank you. <3

confusionisnext March 30 2004, 22:55:17 UTC

I'm really sorry dear. I hope your mother gets better and that you receive your college letters (NYU PLEASE PICK KATIE SO WE CAN HANG OUT IN THE FALL!) soon darling.

If it's possible, I suggest that you take a hot bath and/or a long nap.

<3

storiesforboys March 31 2004, 03:16:34 UTC

i think i'm going to take tomorrow off, a mental health day. i'm definitely in no state to learn or deal with school.

y'know jamie, nyu is my last hope (and it will probably be my last letter). all i want is to get an acceptance from them, and to go there. and if i do, we'll hang out in the fall and own the streets, darling. i promise.

thank you so much, love you <3

pharmacists March 30 2004, 23:09:48 UTC

what happened to your mom? :/
i hope she is ok and feels better soon
(ditto goes for you)

ps, a friend of mine got into nyu (lucky devil), apparently, there is some 1-800 number you can call to see if you got in?
if you want to look for it and can't find it, i could probably ask her or something

pps, although it is quite obvious you got in

storiesforboys March 31 2004, 03:34:11 UTC

thank you so much darling, her stress gave her really bad high blood pressure and nearly killed her, which i'm surprised hasn't happened to me yet.

i've never heard about this 800-number, that would have been nice to know about a long time. but i tried looking for it but i haven't found anything on it. think you could ask her about it and email it to me? (cellblockthree@hotmail.com)

thanks j, i hope i can get into the school i want like you did <3

pharmacists March 31 2004, 20:32:53 UTC

anytime dear,
just emailed you the phone number!

ex_lovejoyd March 31 2004, 01:16:06 UTC

you'll get in. you WILL get in. seriously though katie, it seems to me that if you don't get in...none of us will.
i'm sorry about your mom and your friend and everything. :/ meh.

storiesforboys March 31 2004, 03:36:20 UTC

inna, i have to get in! i have to go to nyu, and you have to come next year and beat up the olsen twins with me. i'm saving mary kate for you, darling.

things will get better, soon i hope. but for now, meh definitely sums everything up. <3