i've got no one but you
so, i've made my decision.
i'm going to university of north carolina, chapel hill.
don't get me wrong, part of me is sad that i won't be going to nyu anymore. because there are people (jamie, inna, elizabeth, gavin, etc) that i was looking forward to seeing in the city. and there are people here (rachel, meghan, tara, hillary, jb, adam, etc) i wanted to visit me and see the city with me, and that won't happen anymore. but this is something i need to do. i know if i went to nyu, i'd be sticking around for the wrong reasons. mainly because i'm too much of a homesick person and fear the thought that i won't be close enough to springfield. but being scared can't be the reason why i'd go to nyu, which it essentially was. especially when i got into unc, which for an out-of-state applicant is extremely difficult to do. and they gave me such amazing financial aid, $18,000 in grants and scholarships. i'll be paying half as much to go there as opposed to nyu. and truthfully, i had no real doubt in my mind about getting into nyu, but unc i knew was a longshot. and i got in. it would be an opportunity wasted if i didn't go.
a year ago, it was my dream to go to school in north carolina, until i thought it wouldn't be possible. which is when i resigned myself to the idea of going to nyu, and told myself it'd be safer for me emotionally. and now this chance has been placed in front of me. i don't know how much i believe in fate, but i know that this happened to me for a reason. so i need to act on this. and i know a few people already are upset at me for this, and i can think of a couple more who will be when i tell them. but all i can say is i'm sorry. not because of what i'm doing, but because you have to act like this. if you really love me, you'll be happy for me and the fact that i'm making the decision that's best for me. in case you didn't know, i worked all my life to get to this point. and i'm not going to throw away my efforts to make other people happy. i just can't anymore. the end.
this is one of my favorite songs ever. and it makes so much sense right now. (click)
i'm going to university of north carolina, chapel hill.
don't get me wrong, part of me is sad that i won't be going to nyu anymore. because there are people (jamie, inna, elizabeth, gavin, etc) that i was looking forward to seeing in the city. and there are people here (rachel, meghan, tara, hillary, jb, adam, etc) i wanted to visit me and see the city with me, and that won't happen anymore. but this is something i need to do. i know if i went to nyu, i'd be sticking around for the wrong reasons. mainly because i'm too much of a homesick person and fear the thought that i won't be close enough to springfield. but being scared can't be the reason why i'd go to nyu, which it essentially was. especially when i got into unc, which for an out-of-state applicant is extremely difficult to do. and they gave me such amazing financial aid, $18,000 in grants and scholarships. i'll be paying half as much to go there as opposed to nyu. and truthfully, i had no real doubt in my mind about getting into nyu, but unc i knew was a longshot. and i got in. it would be an opportunity wasted if i didn't go.
a year ago, it was my dream to go to school in north carolina, until i thought it wouldn't be possible. which is when i resigned myself to the idea of going to nyu, and told myself it'd be safer for me emotionally. and now this chance has been placed in front of me. i don't know how much i believe in fate, but i know that this happened to me for a reason. so i need to act on this. and i know a few people already are upset at me for this, and i can think of a couple more who will be when i tell them. but all i can say is i'm sorry. not because of what i'm doing, but because you have to act like this. if you really love me, you'll be happy for me and the fact that i'm making the decision that's best for me. in case you didn't know, i worked all my life to get to this point. and i'm not going to throw away my efforts to make other people happy. i just can't anymore. the end.
this is one of my favorite songs ever. and it makes so much sense right now. (click)