lately i have had these strange dreams that i this very tiny person being stepped on by all the women that I know ( Read more... )

Rehearsals seem to take over again... it all begins.... it all ends ( Read more... )

We talk... we call it talking.... I listen. I always listen. I love. always love. I want to believe that someday she will stop being a liar. She doesn't know how.. not yet. I wait. I always wait. wait. just wait ( Read more... )

She got me a present... said she loves me.... leaves me ( Read more... )

I've been out walking, I don't do too much talking these days ( Read more... )

I am a weather made woman... made up of wind and rain clouds and overcast.... I walk in the beauty of the sky and it envelopes me with a sense of calm.... I will never be anything except the sky. I am forever floating. You can not catch me ( Read more... )

IM sick.. falling hard into this endless stream of inertia where she tangles my heart and my brain into knots.... im hurting.... you hurt me.. you say "love" to her.... you love her? I hate this. sometimes I hate me so much for letting this hate inside ( Read more... )

there is too much sitting being done, when I am on the computer ( Read more... )

update ( Read more... )

It's the first time writing, and one would think I would have more to say, but thoughts seem to lose there way in my confusion. I am lost, and alone. Halfway across the world over oceans keeping me away from my love. I am trying to see what there is, but my eyes are blinded by melencholy.