Undescribable Sorrow

[storme_arez]

So, it's been almost three weeks now since my youngest sister passed away suddenly at 21. It's still inconceivable to think about. And it leads me to dark thoughts.. I've been looking over her MySpace page, at all the comments that her friends and family have been leaving for her.. She had so much love.. she had so much promise. And she's the one

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My condolences

[taurynne]

If I'm not mistaken, you are writing about Hannah, and I do believe I met her on our way out of Cherry Hill. I hope you are doing better, but I won't sit here and be an ass by telling you time will heal you and all that jazz because, let's face it, that isn't always the case.

All I can do is bid you good tidings.

It's a shame you aren't writing now, you were always really good at that, but that is just my humble subjective opinion as you know.

I'll light a candle for you.

Re: My condolences

[storme_arez]

Thank you. I really do appreciate it. And yes, you did meet her. And if you'll recall, I spoke of her fairly often, considering she was one of the few to write to me in LA on a regular basis. It may be true that time heals all wounds.. but this one seems to not be healing. I don't think I've fully accepted the fact that she's really gone. Maybe it's by the grace of separation, in that I never saw her everyday.. But when I stop to think and realize that she truly is gone, it seems surreal, like it only happened in a dream and if I picked up the phone to call her, she'd answer happily and ask me how I've been.. It still doesn't seem fair, and it hasn't sunk in enough yet that when I speak of my sisters, I still say I have five. Because if I admitted to myself or to anyone else that now there are only four, she might really be gone.