as much as i hate to admit this im scared.
i dont want to be scared. 
being scared is a weakness.
I dont do to well with weakness.
When im weak...I'm really weak. 
I fall more and harder then most people. 
and i hate admiting that. 
but the fuck can a persondo when its the truth?

Right now who i am is being consumed by my fucked up brain.
what do i mean by ( Read more... )

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woah. i havent updated in a long time.
nothing really all that new.
school still sucks.
but i have amazing friends.
im loving life no matter what kind of shit ive been handed.
its been good.
new boy. again. but this time im taking things super slow and its workin out well.

pver all...
im happy

New boy! new boy! new boy!
and this is one truly amazing!
we cuddled for like 5 hours straight and nothing happened besides amazing kisses!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy Happy Happy!

Thank you for completely and totally breaking my heart...
what the hell is going on? I thought I would never hurt 
this bad again... I thought Jared did it enough.But Dan..
boy oh boy have you ever suceeded....

I did not need this before school started.

so today has been a very odd and discontent day. I had this feeling in me ever since i woke up. Which today was at 10:15. Be proud. 
Usually i wake up at either 1 or 3. pathetic i know. So i saw dan! and that was simply amazing! I was really shy around him though. I mean we talked and what not :-D but i was just so happy being there with him, just ( Read more... )

Happy Happy Happy Happy
I love dan
and I love the Barn
and I love Sammi!

Ok... so right now at this moment i am very very hyper and it is currently 4:38 in the morning and i have yet to go to bed. I am sitting here on freddys little mini couch watching Autumn and James make out...Well im not really watching them make-out but you know its happening right next to me and i can hear everything that they are doing.Then ( Read more... )

wow everything in my life is stilll going to shit and is going to shit even more. my friends still pretty much. im soooo sick and tired of being shit on so much. I dont know what i do to deserve this. I try to please everyone as much as i can. I try to be the nicest person ever. I dont know any one that is less selfish or caring then i am. but i ( Read more... )

Dillema

*Boy Alert*

I have found a boy. He completely changed how i feel as a person. He makes me feel how i like to feel. This sensation comes over me and i love it. It makes me feel good. He makes me giggle and feel happy again. I can be completely mad at him but the next second he can make the happiest girl alive. I look at him or even just a ( Read more... )