today, shit went down.

the only thing i ask is to realize that there's two sides to every story.

if you want to know the real whole story, call me.

Is it still me that makes you sweat?
Am I who you think about in bed?
When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off his pants?
Then think of what you did
And how I hope to God he is worth it.
When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch his skin.

I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a ( Read more... )

fuck fuck fuck.

i'm sick of talking.
i'm sick of thinking.
i'm sick of crying.

do i live for today and let tomorrow worry about itself?
do i spare the pain tomorrow and do what's hard today?
do i change myself for him...however pivotal a part of me it is?

there's no reason this shit should be so hard.

It's Monday @ 8:54am, and here I start another week waiting for DTE to bring their sorry asses over to turn on the gas in the apartment ( Read more... )

Preparing for World Civ. tomorrow morning ( Read more... )

hate hate hate this.

decisions. decisions.

stay in school?
don't?
make money?
don't?

i fucking hate this

So I was reading my friends' livejournals, and I ran across LoriGoe's posting from the night we watched fireworks, and it was incredibly sweet, and I realized that

a. I never made a post about that night, the way I said I would

b. I didn't make it out to her baseball outing, and then never apologized about it

c. I hadn't called her to wish her a ( Read more... )

The Renaud.
Apt. 12.

Mine and Grant's.
so geeked.
Putting down payment today.

So excited.
Yet, it seems that with every joy, there's always a taste of bittersweetness.

Wow ( Read more... )

so a bad bad day turned itself into a worse yet better day when I searched YOUTUBE for "The Last Five Years"...

When I did, I found these great performances from this kid named Danny McHugh.
He can sing.
He can dance.
He's brilliant.

When I got to about the third video of his, I cried.

Granted this kid has a much better voice than I'll ever have, he ( Read more... )