updates, updates
Umm yesterday was a rather "expressive" day.. It had its good and kinda embarassing points. So lets get on with the good. I have an intership lined up already! Woot!! Its at my family doctors office. I had to go there yesterday because my allergies were KILLING me. So they always want to know what Im doing. See thats the wierd thing, doctors offices love me for some reason. Anyways, I tell my doc that Im going into the Medical assistant program, Oh yea I forgot to mention that too, yea I got accepted into this program, but its not what I want to do for the rest of my life. Its just a job that I know I will be good at, and I can complete all my prereques while Im taking this program to become a RN. Im not going to become one of those regular hospital nurses. Gawd what a horrible job, no Im prolly going to become an OR nurse, and assist surgeons. So thats my new plan, but the best part is that because there is a dire shortage for nurses right now, I will get to go to school for free. Aww hell yea!! So right now I am volunteering at the oncology unit helping out Sue, the social worker there, with all the events going on. Speaking of wich in Haw news; Guess who is going to be on Northwest Afternoon doing a PSA for the Relay for Life? None other than the lovely ME. Haw! That show is the cheesiest thing evar! I'm surprised its still on the air. But at least its getting the message out for the relay.
So if that wasnt embarassing enough, I decided to go to this woman cancer support group last night. And as always I was the youngest one there, and everyone had breast cancer there. So MILLIE they talked about how to get rid of hot flashes so I will give you the info later if you want. But we all went around in a circle telling our stories and concerns. And I had everything planned out as to what I was going to say, but when it came to my turn it all went to hell.. So this is how it went.
"hi, my name is Courtney, I have stage IV hodgkins. I was diagnosed in November. (voice starts to crack a little) I was sick for a year with punemonia symptoms, I went to 5 doctors and because I had no health insurance they didnt do anything, and just gave me free antibotics, and told me I would get better. But I didnt. (voice starts to crack more, chin starts quivering) It got to the point that I could hardly walk, because my hip and back was hurting me soo bad, and .. (starts sobbing now) I had high fevers for a month straight. (starts balling now) And my mom had non-hodgkins and she.. she died from it. (cant talk anymore because Im balling my head off now) So the nurse cuts in and says, that my mom lived for 2 years with cancer before loosing the battle. And of course that makes me cry even more. And I cried for a good half hour. The tears wouldnt stop no matter what I tried to do. So I cried my head off to a group of strangers for the first time. I wouldnt even cry infront of my therapist, but I guess all my guards were down this day and I felt so awkward. But all these ladies came up to me afterwards, and hugged me. And some started crying to because I was. So I got lots of phone numbers from ladies who told me that if I keep this up, eveyone was going to become my new mommy. So now I have plans to go out to dinner and go to a Mariniers game with this one lady who said that she was going to become my new serrogate mom. And another woman joined her in saying that she would be mom too. So now I have 2 surrogate mommies.
And also, I came to terms last night with this whole LJ thing, I dont care anymore who reads this. I mean if you are reading this then you care about me. I dont think you would take the time to seek out this journal if you hated me. So Im staying put with this, besides I like my screen name too much to give it up :P