The End of a Dream: Why I May Give Up Being a Photographer

[strangenchanted]

The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

My camera was stolen. At the beginning and the end, that is the heart of the story. Which is to say that in this, as in almost all things in life, everything boils down to practical considerations.

It was like losing a limb.

Comments

[razz]

This breaks my heart, and I am truly sorry for your loss! But don't give up your dream if it really is your dream. Maybe the camera will turn up (I've seen it happen). Maybe you'll just have to get a new one. Maybe just get a cheap fill-in so you can at least take snapshots until you can get the next best thing. =)

[strangenchanted]

Thanks for commiserating. Still, i must admit i am not too open to these ideas right now... i am far too aware that life is not a Lifetime Movie and things are not just gonna turn out great. I'm okay with that. And giving up... may be necessary, at least for now....

[razz]

No, life is not a Lifetime movie, but giving up on your dream because you lose a material item that helped you achieve it doesn't have to be reality, and living life like you can never ever achieve your dream because of a setback like this seems akin to living a nightmare to me. I mean, when you call this a dream, do you just mean a hobby your passionate about, or something you live to do? If it's a hobby, then I can see that it can be put aside, maybe forever. If you live to do it, however, then I can't imagine just giving up on it totally. Giving up for now--sure, that's one thing. Giving up something you have to do because your creative spirit needs to do it--that's something else entirely.

[strangenchanted]

A dream has to be possible. That's my view, anyway. Right now this one is not.

Something else i didn't mention. I do have another dream, and that is to be free of debt. It's a priority, one i've been focused on for some time. I didn't mention it before coz... i didn't really think of it. But yeah, it is a consideration.

I know that giving up on a dream sounds like a bad thing. But maybe it's not in all cases. That's what i'm questioning lately. I don't know why it feels okay. It's interesting that... at this stage... it does. That says something: maybe something in me is changing, or has changed. I just don't know yet what, or how.

[redcowgirl]

i'm sorry to hear about your camera. i wouldn't know what to do if my camera got lost...if it did...i'd take it as a sign...a sign that'd be hard for me to accept because i sacrificed too many things to be where i am now...and my camera...owning one...living with one...and trying to make a living with one...is something i know can never be replaced.

again, sorry to hear about your camera.