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[strangeparadyse]

Fuck!

it's like this giant hole is burning up inside me. i just sit and wait and count down. I can't tell anyone cause then it would be worse.

I hate secrets.

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[bentplug]

Word.

But are you sure it's worse not to tell?

[carinareena]

ifyouwantedyoucouldtellmeandiwaouldn'ttellanyone.
ohwait,beenthere,donethat. iloveyou. staystrong.

[strangeparadyse]

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

whew, that felt good.

[mid_limbo]

you have to tell me because i like hearing you say things.

or you could just say anything, really. i just wish it were in person.

[strangeparadyse]

i miss our long talks, and if it were different circumstances i would totally tell you, but i really can't.

i'm sorry.

i love you.

[mid_limbo]

im starting to forget what its actually like to have you around day in and day out... its fucking scary. your just 'chandra on the other end of a phone'. i want to have 'chandra in my city' again.

[twotonepenguin]

you saw Jake Epstein today!!!

you whore!!!!!!!!

((and you thought I wouldn't know who he was... psh))

That probably wasn't the secret you're talking about, though, huh.
hang in there, it'll work itself out, whatever it is

[strangeparadyse]

yeah it WILL work itself out. in about 6 days.

[mid_limbo]

its been six days. spill it sister.

[_halfawake]

Yeah, thats the worst fucking feeling ever. Not only do you desire more than anything to tell the whole world, or at least the person the secret is about (?), but you feel extremeley guilty from keeping it from folks, especially if you know they wouldn't tell or judge. Bummer.

Hey give me your address, I"ll write to you!

[strangeparadyse]

yay!!!!!

christina, good lord how i miss you.

call me and i'll give you my address.