"I'm only telling you this because I don't want you to be the one that gets hurt." Well maybe I want to be hurt...probably not though. What do I do? I'm not going to some how regulate my feelings, that's just not going to happen, I don't know how to do that and it's too late anyways, the feelings are already there. You said I should thank you ( Read more... )

Well, I used to be so proud of my having not thrown up since freshman year and I was 7 the time before that. Well, that's gone down the shitter. I threw up from nausea inducing vitamins not too long ago and this morning I did some more throwing up due to open bar night at Burwood. I lost count of how many drinks I had, and also I don't remember ( Read more... )

I don't really know how to express how truly wonderful and fantastic things are...with the exception of my classes...ya know what though that's really alright with me. It's weird to find that I had this personality instead of me that I never knew I had...one that's fun and funny and witty and had I not decided to take this awful class which I'm ( Read more... )

So my dad got married this weekend. It was announced over and over again "The bride and groom, Mr. and Mrs. George Mineff" and every time I thought to myself "No, that's a lie, Vicki will never be Mrs. Mineff" It was a strange unsettling feeling that this woman whom I hardly know was now my stepmom. I don't think I like it one bit. On top of ( Read more... )

Just when you least expect it. When you're ready to be free. When you don't need it and you're not searching for it. If something comes along then and really only then, that's when it's something big, something real, something that was "meant to be" or as my grandma might say "the universe planned it." So here it is. All I can hope is I don't ( Read more... )

"Hello. You don't know me but my mother knew your father. She's wanted to contact him since 1984 when my father died, but she was afraid he would have his own life and wouldn't remember her. She wishes to talk to you, would that be alright?" "George? Hello...My name is Winnie. I know this might seem strange that I've waited so long to contact ( Read more... )

This past week home has been pretty bazaar. I hung out with people I would never had expected...and I had fun. The fact that I had two moments where I thought to myself "I wish this moment would never end" says a lot about the week. A part of me still wishes the week didn't have to come to an end and the thought that you won't be there when I ( Read more... )

I feel weird sometimes about the thoughts that go through my head. I was riding the L today for the first time in a long while and as a simi-usual event the L stopped for a brief moment and said something along the lines of "Attention: there is a delay up ahead, we will begin moving shortly." The first thing I thought while glancing around at my ( Read more... )

The last few days of being in Chicago were much more intense then I would have liked, intense but necessary, or so I will tell myself. I need to figure out how to make myself be more positive or better yet make others aware that I feel more positive then I may appear. I need to figure out a way to make my helping stop hurting us both so much. I ( Read more... )

oh my god oh my god oh my god oh my god i want fireworks oh my god oh my god i want a sandwich oh my god oh my god i want to go home. I turned 21 this weekend and on the bus ride to "The Darkroom" and little boy no older then 5 was announcing this string of "oh my god"'s, it was pretty adorable and so innocent I wanted to cry. The coincidence of ( Read more... )