I finally got a rack and folding basket attached to my bike! This is very exciting. Now I can bike almost anywhere and don't have to carry a backpack while biking. I can't even begin to explain how good it feels to bike without anything attached to my body... except clothes, of course ( Read more... )

It's a gorgeous day today and I can feel myself breaking away from this sadness and all this old hurt. Friday and Saturday were tough, but I'm letting it go and moving on. It's a new day and I feel happy to be alive and present. My legs are silky smooth, I'm wearing shorts, a tank top and flip flops, and traveling with bells around my ankle. I will ( Read more... )

"Do not underestimate your ability."

-Geshe Chekawa, Kadampa Bodhisattva

I am feeling down tonight. I was feeling pretty good most of the day, and then the afternoon hit and I just started to feel so sad. Everything is always shifting... always changing. I need to accept this. I guess this is just the way it is. I have days where I'm pretty happy and at peace with everything, and then other days I'm sad and heart broken ( Read more... )

I saw my therapist yesterday and read her the list she had me do as "homework." I had two parts of the list: "What I want in a therapist" and "What I want to work on in therapy." Before I read the list, I got a little nervous and told Dr. H. that I felt vulnerable and nervous to be telling someone what my needs are. I cried a little when I read a ( Read more... )

I biked to and from my Thursday evening meditation sit tonight, which is just over 9 miles total! I loved it! The sun was beating down on me on my way to the sit and then it was nice and cool around 9:15pm when I started the ride home. I could feel the slightly cool wind on my skin and I felt so at home in my body, feeling the muscles strain and my ( Read more... )

My best friend R and I went hiking in the Columbia River Gorge area at a place just past Multnomah Falls, called the Oneonta Gorge. It was absolutely beautiful and exactly what I needed for my soul! We got a great work out and brought some yummy cheese and fruit to snack on. When we got to Ponytail Falls I was so excited. We actually walked behind ( Read more... )

I am so emotionally tired.
Setting boundaries is hard.
But taking care of myself feels good.
I'm tired of fighting the Universe.
I'm tired of fighting reality.
I'm just tired of fighting.
Period.

I want to step out of time and everything that is reality
and return to a night in which nothing is real.
... but our bodies and the language we speak without words,
this poetry through hands and mouths and gasps and moans that
sends us spiraling into a different Universe... where love is enough.

~MSD

In a Tree House

Light ( Read more... )