school is blah + stress. I miss Stephen, but glad I got to see him this weekend. Too much drama.

yeah.

" 'Why can you believe the lie, but not the truth ( Read more... )

So yeah its been a long while since I've posted, but I might as well just cause I dont want to go to sleep just yet. I hate the fact that I can get so emotional sometimes. But then hating that Im emotional just makes me more emotional. Sometimes it seems that I can just never be good enough. What is enough anyway? Perfection is my unatainable goal ( Read more... )

So just a thought I had last night, I think the ten commandments were like God's request for wedding vows. The way its worded sounds so harsh and commanding (hence commandments...) but the loving God I know seems to mean something much more gentle ( Read more... )

So overall things are going pretty well. My classes are stressing me out though. And for the last few mornings its been about 3 degrees out when I wake up, and then it warms up to about 17 later in the day. I cant wait till summer. Other then that, Im waiting for Darby to be born so I can go home and see her, and Im excited to see Stephen on ( Read more... )

I can't wait till this week is over. My psy final is gonna take a lot of studying, but oh well. At least I've already started so it wont be cramming. Saturday Im gonna go with Stephen to a work party thing so that'll be cool to see him again. I have to get my wisdom teeth taken out on the 10th so its gonna dampen my holiday spirit, but at least it' ( Read more... )

So I don’t know why but im feeling really angry right now. There’s not really one reason why, but I really just feel annoyed and angry. Maybe its because Im tired, stressed out with the whole scheduling thing, feel ugly and hurt, prolly failed my psy test, and then when I just wanted to play piano to relax I couldn’t and had to be in the same room ( Read more... )

so i wrote this a few weeks ago so it doesnt really apply now, but i found it in my binder and its one of the poems i only half remember writing so yeah ( Read more... )

hmm so a lot of drama has happened lately, but its all over now which is really nice. Or at least I think its over. Anyway, my classes are going well overall. My psycology class is pretty interesting. We've been talking about self-esteem and all that. It sounds like such a simple concept to just forget about what other people think and allow ( Read more... )

so yesterday i got asked out. I didnt know what to say. Its very complicated in my mind. hes really cool but i dont wanna get into something that could hurt either of us. Idk. anyway I jsut got back from my table tennis class. Im getting better slowly. I lost my id card here so i have to go get a new one today. I actually have a lot of stuff i need ( Read more... )