ha. things are SO different now ( Read more... )

ugh. boys really do know how to make a girl feel like shit ( Read more... )

well. i was pretty much severely depressed. but then ellie came to visit, and she cheered me up a great bit. i'm thankful for that :) we had lots of fun together. yep yep. she's like my little sister, i adore her ( Read more... )

wow. i just watched schindler's list, and that was probably one of the most profound and touching movies i have ever seen. i cant even begin to explain how that movie moved me.. so all i want to say, is that i hope to be half the person that oskar schindler was. I heard that it was based on a true story, so, yeah, that's what i want from life. That ( Read more... )

yeah. so my grandmother died.

and it's my dad's birthday.

pretty fucked up.

i don't know how to handle this,
and all i want to do is cry.

but there's no privacy here.

i'm sick. my throat is so sore. and i'm sitting here eating reeses pieces with nuts. it's not really feeling that great when i swallow it. but oh well ( Read more... )

god. one day it's one thing, another day it's another thing. i really can't figure anything out anymore. I wish i could just stop thinking. but i can't. this whole thing is a never ending cycle, and it's driving me crazy. i just need to forget about it. at least until after christmas break. at least ( Read more... )

alright. so friday ( Read more... )

the more i find out about the formal, the more i think i'm gunna fucking have the worst night ever ( Read more... )

Last night I had a dream about Chris. In the dream we both just like broke down crying and hugging each other, and telling each other how much we miss each other. It was really depressing actually. I really want to go home, and be with my friends. Even though i was just there a few weeks ago, it wasn't enough ( Read more... )