i still like jheyson. i'm so jealous of lindsay. i just want him back again. i miss the way things used to be.

Today i saw snow for the first time in FOREVER. Granted, it wasn't much.. but it was still pretty awesome. :) I finally finished my stupid paper, and i'm feeling entirely regjuvenated. This weekend is going to be amazing ( Read more... )

hm. i have a serious problem with procrasination. like SERIOUS. I have this huge load on my shoulders, and as each day goes by, it only gets heavier. I really need to start on this shit, but i just can't focus.

and i really want to get what i want.

goddamnit.

Yeah. so things are pretty different now. Alex and i aren't talking anymore. I think he's probably mad that i don't make the extra effort to talk to him. But honestly? I feel like im leading him on every time we hang out. I can just tell he wants to kiss me, and i keep finding ways to get away. I don't want to have to constantly worry about that. ( Read more... )

i don't understand my life. At all. I don't understand boys. Eh, what the hell?? K, so i guess i'll talk about them individually, maybe that will help clear my head a little bit ( Read more... )

i just want him to want me and he doesnt. He wants that ugly older girl. She's so gross, why does he like her? its fucking bullshit. I shouldnt care, and its not that i like him. i just want him to like me. Im used to getting what i want, and i cant really get him, and that bothers me. its really fucking making me mad. im not a hoe, im not gunna ( Read more... )

Well. The Alex thing is resolved. I don't know what i'm doing though, bc its obvious what he wants from me. And i can't force feelings for him. I love talking to him, and i'd be really sad if we no longer talked, and i love how hes very ambitious and intelligent. But.. i dunno, there just isn't that crush feeling. I wish there were tho, bc then it' ( Read more... )

Since when are BOYS dramatic? I thought that being a drama queen was a girl thing. But apparently NOT. and also.. when is it NOT allowed for guys and girls to be friends? This shit is retarded. Alex is retarded. I liked talking to him and stuff.. but now he's basically giving me a fucking ultimatum.. saying either more than friends or nothing.. and ( Read more... )

goddamn. i wish he wasn't such a manwhore. bc he's so gorgeous and i totally want him.

i've only been to the library here twice, tonight was my third time. Usually when people go to the library, they are there to study. I, on the other hand, went for FYS and ended up talking to Dierre & Dave for like 2 hours. They're really fun/nice guys. I hope we all become closer. Not in that way, but it would be nice to have some guy friends ( Read more... )