i wish that just for once, afterward, i could actually not cry about being a whore ( Read more... )

isnt it great how people want you to die of antoher overdose?

there is a point to my smoking. you see, theres a period of time, after a few drags or so, that your body, your mind, your heart, everything just goes completly numb. you dont even think about anything. Not your best friend, not homework, not even yourself. you dont even think. its just a period of clarity. where nothing is real, nothing is fake, ( Read more... )

Murder now, the pattern called "must we"
Just because the son has come

Jesus,wont you fucking whistle ?
Something but the past and done

well. well well.. here we go.

saw doctor prusad today, another increase in dose. two, actually. she thinks whats happening now may cause, "extreme to perminant damage to your mental ability to function." hem. well. happy birthday, more drugs.

happy birthday... to me.

i.. i dont know what to do.. or say . so hi.

i guess the thing that makes me the most scared is i dont know how to comfort him. and im scared what will happen next. like im to anxious. i cant even hold concentration. maybe i need more adderall. damn drugs.
good luck on astronomy. peace.

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