I am so lost in this mess of a woman...

[strikes_orange]

To be fat or thin, its a choice most of us can make and right now I feel like I'm stuck at a crossroad. I would like to loose weight, but I'm feeling like I'm being pulled in two different directions. On one hand I have my job -- for those of you who don't know I'm a life drawing model. I stand/sit/lay around naked for hours and hours in front of

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[lemonee_wonder]

Well, i guess you wont really know until you find out. Try loosing a little bit of weight, nothing drastic, and if you like the way you look than and it makes you feel better, than i good for you! But in todays society i don't know no matter how much you loose and how well you dress, it's never good enough because people have this distorted vision of what is "pretty" and "beautiful".

I really hope that made sense and i truly love you for who you are, no mater what. *hugs*

[strikes_orange]

Aw thanks Lisa. I know I always count on you to have my back. :33

It's just... so hard and confusing sometimes. You know? *hug back!*

[lemonee_wonder]

Yeah, i know it can be, i feel that way sometimes. But then i realize i have other things to worry about, that's there's more to me than how i look. I think you just need to find the happy in between. It'll come to you. I believe! *hug hug*

[zanesama]

I don't think I can tell you much here that you don't already know. You're a very attractive girl, whatever size, and as far as I know, most men would rather have something to grab onto. You are voluptuous and vivacious in the classical, true sense. Not the fat-woman-trying-to-justify-unhealthy sense. You're healthy, and you're curvy, and you're attractive for all of it.

If you do want to try losing a bit of weight, like Lisa said, go for it, as long as its for you. You don't overeat as is, so it'd probably just be a matter of exercising more hardcore, or something.

Basically, do what makes you happy.