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[striped_goggles]

I...am really confused right now.

The number of important people in my life has increased to two when it was just one for as long as I can remember.

It's hard to adjust to, I guess. Especially since I think they hate each other...or at least strongly dislike each other.

Comments

[xchocolate_gunx]

Private
...

So I'm your number one, yet you're living with her now. And you're not coming back.

You keep SAYING things and trying to promise me shit you can't or won't fulfill, and that's just making it even less likely that you'll return.

Just fucking stay with her, then. Take your shit and move over there.

I'm always fucking number two, and it seems like nothing I ever do is going to change that, even with you now. So whatever.

You just don't like saying goodbye. Maybe I'll just disappear again so you don't have to. You can feel more free that way, alright?
/private

[striped_goggles]

Private
It's...it's hard to explain. I don't understand what's going on in my head right now, I really don't, and if I did then we wouldn't be so...not what we were.

Mello...you'd never be number two with me. Never...

I don't like it because I don't want to! I...I don't need to be "more free," I'm fine without it...

Please don't leave again...please?

[xchocolate_gunx]

Private
...you don't understand, riiiiight.

Yeah, I totally get it.

God, just fucking say you're not coming back except to get your stuff and stay gone, because I can't do this fucking waiting for you.

You KNOW I'm fucking impatient, stop making me wait!

What the fuck can I do to make you come back decide faster?

If I'm not staying with you, I have no reason to stay here at all. It's not like you need me, and I can't need you if you're not here.

[[ooc: mental fucking, Mello's great trait. He's trying to force Matt to come home since he would rather apologize in the Misa-less face-to-face talk.]]

[striped_goggles]

Private
Just...I dunno, be more direct with stuff, you're always beating around the bushes and it makes it sound like you honestly don't give a shit about what's going on. And it's the same as it always was, if you don't care then I don't care for most situations, at least.

Convince me, Mel, don't just yell and expect the world to work in your favor.

[[ooc: Matt's...a little less oblivious, he had a small epiphany XD;]]

[misa_soup8]

Thanks Matt~!

Oh, and sure~ That sounds fine. I know a cute little coffee shop around here~

ah..mello..?

[striped_goggles]

Alright, may I leave that to you? I haven't really been around off campus so I don't know what's out there and stuff...

Yeah...

[misa_soup8]

Of course~! We can go soon after the party if you'd like~

oh...

(( ooc: poor misa mun.. ))

[striped_goggles]

Sounds good.

[[ooc: hon...mun = you, muse = character XD <3 ilu daughter~]]

[greatdetectivel]

I can sympathize with you somewhat.

[striped_goggles]

Really? How so? I'm just curious...

[greatdetectivel]

It seems like someone of interest has appeared in my life rather suddenly. It's odd. I don't think that's bad though.

[striped_goggles]

Well, maybe it's better for you and I hope it is, this is confusing because it sounds like it's one person in your life and that's always good...

[obliviousracoon]

What's confusing about that?

ooc: Matt's filtering this now XD;

[striped_goggles]

Filtered
I used to only have one person as the center of my world, and now I have two. It was easier when I just had Mello to care the most about, but now Misa's in my world and it's just...confusing.

[[ooc: Huh...Matt kinda sounds like a certain twin...that was unintentional.]]

Filtered to Matt [[ooc: 'cause he seems to want privacy...]]

[obliviousracoon]

That sounds so familiar... Can't really figure out why..

Hm... I think that you can't just have just one person in the world to care about. It's inevitable that you're going to find more people if you reach out a little.

[striped_goggles]

Filtered
Really? So you've known people with this problem before?

Yeah but...I guess I wasn't expecting it to actually happen, it hadn't for so many years...