...continued
as i said in my last post... im on a mission of self discovery...
the obvious things
my name is olivia. i live in florida. im a girl. im 15.
the physical things
im kinda short and i think i like it. im slim.not skinny. no matter what i do im tan. i want more piercings/tattoos. i really like my eyes and eyeliner. i dont think i care too much about the clothing i wear as long as i dont have to pay too much for it. im kinda athletic. my boobs keep growing and i dont like it. no matter how much i eat i dont gain weight. and theres prolly some other stuff that im not thinking about.
the mental things
i went through extreme depression for about 4 years straight. i think im better now. i try to be on good terms with people. after being in school (not including pre-k) for 10 years, i am just now finding real friends (i think my depression had something to do with it). i have a hard time trusting people but im getting better. i think im happy with my life. i dont hate the town i live in. i dont hate the house i live in. i dont hate the people that live in my house. I dont hate being alone as much.
the love things
im afraid of being in love. ive been hurt too many times. i honestly dont care about sex yeah i joke around about it... but i feel no need to have sex or anything like that. my sexuality is currently unknown, im very much attracted to guys but ive lost trust in them. but i also have become rather fond of girls over the past 2-3 years. but then again... i might just find them attractive or im just comfortable enough with myself that it doesnt matter to me who im with. i dont care about sex anyways...
the interest things
i love music... nearly any form of rock there is and then some other stuff too. to me there is nothing better then a concert. i love the beach. i could stay there for ever. i love to surf, but i suck at it. i like weird movies. writing, mostly poetry. drawing. painting. photography (black and white).candy raves (dont ask). eyes. tattoos. piercings. debating things. reading (sometimes). literature. art deco style. hippy/surfer style. acting. singing. techie stuff. tv production. politics. making things. designing/altering/making clothing. civil/womens/gay rights. the 60's-the 80's. playing guitar. candles. insence. my ball python. people. sleeping. food. nerds (the candy). loud music. trampolines. rockhopper penguins. peace. fran. jessica. love. uncommon religions. being creative. being crazy. being (con/de)structive. dying hair. bert's bees. downtown. the pit. backstreets. tea. the energy/power of the earth. and much much more.
the uniterest things
drugs. sex. violence (for the most part). closedminded people. hypocrites. george w. bush. war. suffering. hunting. discrimination. overly judgmental people. feeling empty. depression. death. labling things/people. (geno/homo/sui)cide. mean people. and others.
the other things
i dont think i care much about what people say/think about me. i know i do a little, but thats human nature. i need to stop hiding who i really am. i need to be more open to things. i need to care more about things that are important to me. i need to live.
well i dont know what else to say... im scared to post this b/c im being really open about a lot of my feelings. if you care enough to know more... just ask
peace
liv