I'm finding it odd that over the last couple days of thinking about it, I have no worries about fall and being away. I don't have any buried hidden thoughts of worry or fear. That's so.....relaxing. I've never been relaxed about something like that before. It feels good. Everything about it just feels good.

Scary thought of the night: Realizing how much of a limb you went out on, how unprotected you are, and how many ways you can be hurt in the same ways all over again.

Comforting thought of the night: You won't be, not again.

Oh sleepless nights......

You know if it weren't for the paradox of it all I'd go back in time and kill the guy who invented time. Fucker.

My throat decided to join the ranks of mental retardation tonight and started making funny noises and stuff which was quite embarassing but oh well. Whatever, it has a mind of it's own.

Goodnight.

ATHscuba: you know how little kids draw pictures when they are stressed, troubled, depressed when they are little; and according to school therapists thats an artistic way of showing their problems, and they take them seriously. I think I should do the same thing, except have it be a cubicle hanging me, or setting me on fire, on just some random ( Read more... )

There is nothing like coming home from eating breakfast and seeing that your best friend left you 81 messages while you were away causing you to be rolling on the floor laughing your ass off because the story you are reading is absolutely hilarious. Thank you Tony.

Have you ever just completely and entirely felt like an ass?

To see you when I wake up, is a gift I didn't think could be real ( Read more... )

There isn't quite anything like the feeling of the seems between your fingers. The feeling of the leather over your hand and the snap of it when the ball hits it. The sound and feeling of a piece of wood hitting the rawhide. They say you never know what you're missing until you've lost it. I say you never know what you're missing until you've ( Read more... )

Damnit for missed opportunities....

Yay for phone calls that wake me up and make me happy.