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[stripsofacid]

So this weekend was pretty good...I had work off all weekend...Me and Maris went to Kennywood...me and Mike were fighting but whats new...I mean I keep letting myself down thinking everything is going to be alright...and it is for a while then we get in another fight and he just ends it...I can't take any of this shit anymore...I feel so useless

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[princess_420]

ok ashley IF this entry is reffering to me, i want to know how you can say that considering what i wrote as a comment to your comment in my last journal entry. i mean if you havent read it i made it extremely clear that i am always here for you no matter what happens. i dont know....im so confused right now..im not trying ot be a bitch i just wish you could elaborate a little more.i mean to me you dont want to be friends whatsoever anymore but you never cleared any of that up so i guess im right? i dont know.....

[stripsofacid]

No Amanda...I still love you beyond belief...but I am confused and hurt..and I don't know if people are trying to intentionally hurt me or are and don't realize it...when you are always talking about Carley it hurts...I understand she is the one who is there for you now...but I use to be that person and now I am not...I have so many emotions and I can't explain them on here...we need to talk..but I don't know when we will have time too...thats what makes me so frustrated...we both have so very different lives now..and things are so built up inside of me now...I just feel like crying everyday...like when you talk about having so much fun with Carley...and blah blah blah...its like Amanda use to write this stuff about me...and it gives me little hope that we will never be the same as we were...I want us to be friends again...best friends...sisters...because thats how strong our relationship was...and we both need to say fuck our relationships this is our friendship and it was before you too...so if you don't like it fuck yourself...ya

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[pixiepoo99]

hey i have fridays off and im done with work at 6:30 on saturday and sunday. you should give me a ring... i think im going to baltimore md on the 21st so i wont be around then... dan wants to come but cant cuz he cant afford the gas money with his truck. blah. im going anyway.

well please call me and we can hang out. cuz i love and miss u tons. cya hun

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[stripsofacid]

I'll give you a call 2morrow...love you hun...

[princess_420]

ashley i want the same thing as you.i want "us" back. even though we do have different lives now we need to work around them and talk. carley is just a friend of mine, her not even anyone else is going to replace you ever, i can guarantee that. i have really missed you. i really was not trying ot hurt you, i would never do that to you..... when u hurt, i hurt. it is defiently not healthy to keep things bottled up inside. i know because i do it. i would call you but i dont have your number and i cant turn my phone on because its a piece of shit and wont charge. but i will get your number off of jillian and i will give you a call and we can figure out when we can talk. I LOVE YOU ASHLEE MARIE SCHOLL!

[stripsofacid]

Yay! We should talk 2morrow after I get out of skool...gimme a call whenever you can tonight 412 853 4828...I am working but I will return your call on break.