so I was reading through my old OLD livejournal and here are some gems:
"my life is ice cream on a paper plate. you just don't put ice cream on a paper plate."
"always expecting the worst
my mouth cracked open spit out a curse
well timed and well rehearsed
and that's no suprise" (not sure if I wrote this)
"make decisions and purposefully forget to regret them."
"a drunk black guy sits next to me on the bus and starts rubbing my leg and tells me he wants to get personal. enough to make a bi girl go lez."
"i remember thinking when i was younger that adults were so strong, that they never cried. i realize now, there just isn't enough time to just sit and have a good cry."
"my mom is such a bloody pad. yeah, you think that's gross/brutal? you haven't met the mullet." HAHAHAHA
" i saw some wannabe pagans dance around a grassy area of campus. soltice celebration consisting of fat-nobody-would-screw girls in flowy skirts with flowers in there hair running in cirles around a guy with a bongo and frizzy goatee. don't get me started on their "altar". they probably have a club and page in the yearbook. some fucktards ruin the pagan good name."
"while reading the ciran wrap box we noticed it said "all purpose" and were struck with the undeniable need to find out what all the purposes were:
we made a ciran wrap fort with a door and everything
we made ciran wrap hats
we made ciran wrap ninja chuck things
we made a ciran wrap softball game up
we lost interest in the ciran wrap"
"Direction is harder to find then a needle in a fuckin haystack." Ain't that the truth.
"i got in a massive fight with josh. it started out about how much he doesn't like old people, and i was all, but they have cool stories and it escalated to how i always have to judge him and respond to him and blah blah blah he was just talking out loud blah blah blah i'm hard to read blah blah blah. MY BIGGEST PET PEEVE IS WHEN PEOPLE JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT I'M A BITCH. BUT A FAIR BITCH, I ALWAYS SPEAK WITH THE TONE OF SUPERIORITY, IT DOESN'T MEAN I THINK LESS OF YOUR OPINION OR YOU, IT MEANS I THINK MORE OF MINE! CHRIST ON A STICK I HONESTLY WISH HE WOULD DISAPPEAR!"
"my mom did the whole "feel sorry for ME because my daughter is crazy" act again today. but psychiatrist #1 is absolutely my favorite because he was like: um, the type of kids i see are drug dealers and rob banks. excuse me, what has your daughter done again?"
"time for me to take a pill and get happy clinique style."
"madness, my life has been sheer madness. no, that would insinuate
transparency. my life has been thick, foggy like the harbor madness."
"there's this project in my creative writing class and i have to write these love poems... it's crazy.
i've never written a love poem in my life! i mean geez.
they are so disgusting, if i were a chewy fruit snack you could call me LAME-O.
my life is simmering right now.
no drama that i haven't manifested.
although, that is true with 75% of everyone's lives.
drama queens rule the earth.
so bow down before i throw things at you and make you dance for me"
"AVOID THE WORLD, IT'S JUST A LOT OF DUST AND DRAG AND MEANS NOTHING IN THE END.
- JACK KEROUC "
I also found a list of 57 things I wanted in a guy...and it still holds true.
big wow. I wrote better when I lived in California and was emo and bitchy. The poems were cool. My inspiration completey dried up. Hmm...that just sucks.