Comments | stupidbenny: say it ain't so...

stupidbenny

say it ain't so...

Nov 21, 2005 21:52

blank........i don't know how to feel, what to feel, what to think. i feel like i've forgotten how to breath. like a dieing fire, a scream that can't escape, a book without words, just unorganized splots of ink on a page. as if something in me just stopped and won't start back up ( Read more... )

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spam2maps November 22 2005, 12:52:53 UTC

Dude... The Jiri Fischer thing was like... One of the scariest things I've ever seen on TV ever. That was freaking CRAZY.

stupidbenny November 23 2005, 00:30:21 UTC

i know man, all i did was turn the tv on to watch it and i had to play catch up, thank goodness for DVR!

filly05 November 22 2005, 15:34:49 UTC

Hey Ben, i know that you are one smart cookie so i know that i really dont need to be saying this... but you know that its just Satan working diligently to put those thoughts and ideas in your head. maybe if anything im saying this for myself as well. heh.
well, i will keep you in my thoughts and prayers ok? RTWH!!!

chutzpa02 November 22 2005, 19:47:02 UTC

I'm sorry for whatever is going on with you... I hope you feel more optimistic soon, happy thoughts and friendly-ness is sent your way from me, man. I just went to Utah for a couple days, and there was a guy at Diana's school (actually, the one she made out with in the play haha) that looked so much like you, it was pretty freaky. Anyway, I hope to see you again before you leave. <3 talk to you later?

fenderbender07 November 22 2005, 20:57:02 UTC

all i want is for you to feel better....i wish i could help, i want to help..talk to me please...thats what i am here for...best friends always listen, just dont be afraid to tell me whats up...i love you benny..hope i see you soon.

mudmx1 November 25 2005, 11:20:21 UTC

"wondering if i've gotten a taste of what is said to be the hardest thing about dedicating yourself to a cause that doesn't bring success statistically, but in ways only measured by your effort. but how do you keep that effort strong when statistically you fail in your eyes and the eyes of others ( ... )

stupidbenny November 27 2005, 00:56:09 UTC

thank you for that insight, it is absolutely the answer i was looking for. it helped, and although you're right, we talked less than we could have, you were always someone who made me laugh no matter what. i'll miss you, and thanks again!

Benny