ups and downs...ups and downs

[stupidlyblinded]

my moods have been really wierd lately and im not really sure y. when im down its not bad,im not cryin,or hatein life.im just not happy,im not depressed tho.its just thoughts that i have bring my down and i hate the thoughts that im havein.one thing i told myself i wasn't gonna do this year was think about joe alot...and thats when im feelin down.i

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[alreadythere7]

I'm sorry I somehow missed this entry a while ago. It must have been when I avoided this damn thing. I'm sorry you were feeling how you're feeling, and I know you feel it. No matter how much you tell me you're over him, I know you're not. It's going to take a lot for him to be off your mind. Why this happens I think, is you still have no exceptable reason for why he turned so evil. There are too many possabilities for why he did what he did, and none of them are anything close to what he told you. Which sucks. And you haven't made peace with him. I understand (you know I do) mostly everything you're going through. I do wish things turned out different between you too, he didn't just decieve you, he fooled all of us. I'm not sure how, but that's probably why I hated him until he wanted to bring us out to eat or do something. I'm not sure how you're feeling now, but I know you're stronger then this. And I know he thinks about you as much as you do him, but I'm sure he thinks you're better off without him... and that's why he tries to