so after thinking about it i decided i'm not moving i've invest to much to pack my bags and leave i came here to learn so hey thats what i'm gonna do even if it kills me ....... learn, be happy, be young, enjoy life and the people i'm with and i'll meet ........ fuck being sad not worth it not worth the stress there is so much to life why be sad ( Read more... )

so i have the opprotunity yet again to pick up my life and move. this time for a job to make $30 an hour for starters. i will still be able to go to school and finish up my degree just not here in gainesville...... although it is very tempting. and yes it is stupid if i don't take it. i have a feeling that i need to finish what i started up here ( Read more... )

i beleive it is time to swear off girls for awhile they seem to never know what they want..... or maybe they don't know if they do or do not want me........ oh well there are more important things in the world...... and if people aren't willing tobe there for you then in all honesty to me they just aren't worth it right now maybe someday they will ( Read more... )

so I made a stupid mistake.... ok ok i make alot but still ...... so anyway yeah i still trying for laura and thats my stupid mistake we got into a big fight last night..........well big for us....... she says she feels that every other time we talk it feels like we are breaking up all over again..... i know i need to back off..... i need to walk ( Read more... )

I'm a firm believer that the person who said "It is better to have loved and lost, then to never have loved at all" A. should be Shot!!! and B. never loved a damn thing in there life...... whatever i'll get over it. I'm just being stupid..... but what an amazing feeling being in love is. so intense i think only second to the lose of love which is ( Read more... )

***Disclaimer: what you are about to read is a true account of what my head is thinking.I've noticed from a while back that tangents, poor grammer and spelling is they way my mind thinks. if it is hard to read. i only apologize on the fact that YOU can't understand it. this is a way for me to vent, not an essay for you to grade... so with many ( Read more... )

school starts on wed. and i'm was picking up my room....... yes i know that is a surprising thing..... anyway just listening to some music on my comp then a hoobstank song comes on and i start to laugh i laugh because it fits running away was the name of the song.... how lifes little things make us laugh

so again a new year at school and we start overagain...... i seem to live my life by the years i live for a year in one place i live for a few in another nothing ever feel home for me always making new friends and loved ones i try not to push the old one away if i do ..... i just tired and would like a more settled life is that to much to ask????

well i have to say it has been and interesting week. let me first start with the first 24hr ( Read more... )

so tomorrow july 16 i'll be gone for about a month... I think i need this time to get away... to much has been going through my head... so many thoughts...can't sleep.... i realize something i miss the most is having someone in my bed some one to curl up next to someone to tell you it's ok when you wake up from a bad dream. some one to lay there ( Read more... )